yeaaaa,
as i said it last time. i am quite in the mood of writing stories now.
this is actually a story of one of my acquaintances.

i heard of it a while ago.
but this time round, she sat down herself telling me about it.
a weird story that you can think of it as sweet,
but you can also think of it as absurd as well.

at her stage, one thing is certain, life cannot change much.
how sometimes, we just hope that we can just sleep,
and tomorrow some extreme changes happen and all problems seem so far away.
how many times, we wake up and nothing much has changed.
and she is at the stage when i guess she is not even hoping anymore.

she has three kids.
all have grown up, and have family of their own.
and, her husband had long departed to the other side.

the last time i visited her home,
there was a little trace of memory when the house was merrier,
when her kids were still growing up, and she was still so much influential to their lives.

now the house looked better than the past since it had been renovated before i came,
but it felt different.
it still carried the comfy cool ambience.
but, now it was as if there was lonely tones played in the background.
an exact feeling you get when sun is setting.


before i left, we reached one interesting point.
it was about the guy that was with her.
but this guy was no ordinary guy.
he himself were married, and to another person.

but, rumor has it that before he married his current wife, he was chasing her.
and, i heard it was quite a serious one.
he is a decent man, looks smart and seems to have a good big heart.
then, of course, one question remains.
why they are never together?

many possible reasons fly around.
one, that i personally think is making sense, is that she was not ready for another marriage.
and the reason for that unreadiness was that remarriage was not something generally acceptable back then.

so back to the future, i can assure you that they are actually not in any kind of affair.
again if remarriage was too liberal, an affair is really out of the window.

instead, they have grown this weird relationship.
i can't tell you exactly how the thing works,
but it is for everyone to see that the man really cares for the woman.
of course, everyone includes the wife.

and as i left, i was still trying to figure out what they were feeling.
is it the same as when i confessed to  a girl that i like her.
or when i walk together with the girl i like.
or is it just that sad feeling when you say good bye to mister golden sun at the end of each day?

i still can't understand enough.
but, in those eyes that seemed quite weak, i could feel there is still love lurking around.
a type of love that i know,
and another that i don't really know.