handle with care

when your body and mind get pretty beaten, you usually get more philosophical.
especially when you try to squeeze writing a blog before late night bath.

and i remembered about these:

once upon a time,
a friend jokingly cursed me "you won't get a job!"
and it's true, i went unemployed for a year plus.

another time,
another friend told me in supposedly quite a serious context,
"eh, i think you never really suit into the typical office job"
i took it with a pinch of salt.
it was like, you know, i also want to have such a career.
but, this course i was taking wouldn't allow me such a path.
or at least that path was not idealistic and unimaginable.
and, i would say it is pretty accurate comment.
not that i really enjoy what i am doing.
but, it is just right on the spot.

and at another time,
another friend told me,
"why don't you go for this (an entirely different path)?!"
i just laughed.
because this time i really wanted to say "yes, i want"
but, yes there are buts!

i forget what i answered eventually.
but, that was really that wishing upon a star moment.
said it slowly and sure by the heart.
afraid that it is so delicate that it could break.

and objectively, now, i can't really see the interconnecting line.
just believe that the potter knows best!
He handles me with proper care.