found that little thing

after i, as if, were presented with choices for my first job, i got lost.

oh well, it didn't go straight away like that, but it almost did.

of course it started with all the happiness in the world struck me. i started to think what i could do with each job and started to rank them. however, since all things have pros and cons, i finally reached the ultimate point, which is i was worried if i were to be offered with a certain job because i would need to decide to take it or not while i was kind of desperate for the other job.

and now?

personally, i am not feeling as confident as i was back then. and, i was reminded how i pleaded to God to give me any job of my choices and i would perform. but, what the heck with my change of attitude just now? i began to bargain.

and, that is true that choices generally spoil. and, i think, the best choice we will ever make is when we do not really have choice to make. He decides best.