today, i had my lunch at mcdonald.
and i saw kids playing cikupa.
the game i used to play in my primary level.
i was kind of surprise to see it being played by the super-modern Singaporean kids.

few days ago, i learned a new terms called 'capability'
in business, it means the ability of the company in combining their different resources.


anyway,,,
when i had my first-ever mega-mc-spicy.
i kind of lament over my super brilliant life so to speak.

...
being born not in the super rich family is a disadvantage.
i in fact could list down a lot,
being not so handsome really is not helpful,
being not talented in many things,
being so much in love with sleeping,
having a low GPA,
having not done any internship,
and many more....

eventually, i realized though,

*being a-low-GPA student,

*somehow involved in a production,
where i need to sell tickets,
i lost 4 tix, and i believe i will be blamed for the loss.
sometimes it was my fault.
but here, i believe i play a Jesus role.
but who cares. nobody will give it a damn.
nobody will take it.
because there is an easy way out, me.
can be done while watching tv, posting a blog,
even while cleaning your ass from shit (cebok)


* asking people to come and watch.
somehow, i was wrong in their eyes.
and i became a Judas.
or even worse, pharisian probably they see me.
being hated by unreasonable reasons.


* pulling out from another production.
and causing another havoc.

oo really.
it is bloody freaking brilliant.

here, the knowledge from my IB class comes in handy.
when i combine together all things i have.
i know.
it is like a seed of corn.
it is a blessing on the way.
stuck in traffic jams perhaps.
but i know it'll come


blessing....
this is how i pronounce it:
the family i was born in,
really, i couldnt ask anything better than this.
because if i do, it would to be too much....

and one thing i learn,
any fool can criticise, condemn and complain and most fools do.
---
sometimes, i am a fool perhaps.