moving

with a longer term perspective set, i am moving out from this 7 year old blog. 

now i realize i need a more professional email address,

and have a less obvious blog address for speaking freely. 

for these, i have got them really wrong. -_-

anyway, please pay me a visit friendss! :)

https://manwhowrites.wordpress.com/

i know i should pick a rather less cheesy name. 

but here you go, i am bad at naming. 

they said winding down your tiring day with blogging is good.
and, so i am trying now.

as it is only a few hours away, finally my country has come to a very interesting juncture.
we are going to celebrate our democratic freedom choosing our own leaders.
as much as many people emphasizing on the importance of winning the legislative election, the people here still only regard president as the most important person in this country.

in my only second participation in the election, this is the closest to the ecstatic party of democracy, which we were educated to have since we were young.
this is how the election needs to be theoretically.

we see many old faces competing again in this election. yet, it still has room for new faces to provide stiff competition. of all people, of course, one of the only announced running vice-president catches the more attention.

he is still categorically young for a candidate, he has a very good business running, and he is of the minority group of this country. i really can't imagine what is happening in his family at the moment. this is one day before all the hardwork he has put come into a test. regardless the result, tomorrow is a big day for him and his family.

at the very last, i am quite excited to cast my vote tomorrow. one thing is dead certain for me. i don't really understand if everyone keeps saying that change is what we need.

for me, why do we need to change what is already good? sometimes we just need to improve. there is no need of re-inventing the wheel. we just need a better indonesia.

have a great day tomorrow. enjoy the party!

after a long draught of cinema,
finally this week i went twice, two days in a row.

probably not a very good timing as there are not many good movies around.
but, yeah, i still went.
one is paid by the company, so there's no reason to decline the offer.

and, somehow, i just didn't watch the so-called movie at the moment, need for speed.
i, instead, watched Divergent and Her.

her is one of those rare movies that left me really confused at the end of the day.
it brings a really difficult concept of the future, that is just really difficult to understand.
i can't put myself into the movies. i just can't see myself loving Siri.
but, that should not take anything away from the movie.
it's one brave idea, one possible view of the future, especially the male pants!

meanwhile, Divergent is always my type.
the romance failed though. i just felt that they forced it too much in the romance aspect.
other than that, it is good!
i love it when they create this new world, put their system in, and Divergent does it quite well.

one thing from Divergent, they have an exact faction (group) that you have to belong to.
you can't be in two different groups. once you are in one, you will be there forever.
just like any other movie, there are these exceptional people, the different ones, the Divergents. 
they know they sort of belong to more than one faction.

the same with our world, we try to put ourselves in that DISC boxes, sanguine or melancholic boxes.
once you are in one group, you will find yourself turning into that mould even more each day passing.
our jobs try to do the same too. the industry you are in. the culture you are in.
the country you are in. the very family you are in.
they are dictating our paths.
although we have plenty of choices, the best might not be there.

the movie might not intend to push it that far,
but at least, i love it when i could be drowned in the movie thinking about this and that.
and for Her, i have been thinking of Scarlett for quite a while!
what a hot fine lady, with a captivating sexy voice! i love her! 

feeling guilty and relaxing at the same time!

i have spent the last 24 hours mostly resting if not sleeping. 

updating myself with a thing or two. 

and of course that missing plane is really awful.

hope everyone is safe and, most of all, alive. 

for the last two weeks, i have learned two things.

it is so easy for me to lose sight on the long term goal. 

it is so annoying that i easily shifted my focus on the little success,

and proceeding forward too cautiously, and with much worry. 

surely, it was not the plan. 

and the other thing is my english. 

of all things, i think my english has suffered the most since i moved back.

it is so difficult now to write anything in it. 

it always feels like the words are there,

but they are just far enough for me to recall them. 

i am not really sure how to cure both. 

perhaps writing this could help easing the problem.

at the very least, i wish i will not fall to the level of the english of the teenagers here.

otherwise it would seem just like a complete wipe off of all things i've done for the last 7 years or so. *sigh*

finally my so called training period has come to the closing stage.
and in the name of an expanding business,
it seems like this batch is going to be thrown out faster than anyone can anticipate.

and so it proceeded.
a third of the batch was sent out to the branches.
as good as one can explain it, the assignment to the branch sounded more like a dead sentence.
it was as if your doctor told you that you have a cancer.

the announcement was made in front of everyone.
when you escape from the sentence, you are in that mixed zone.
you are relieved, but, someone has taken over your place instead.
a little relieved smile was an enough salt for their wounds.

the best explanation i would love it to be true is that:
we have looked down upon the branch far too severe.
we still don't know what good things lie ahead there.
but there lies also another problem. precisely, we are unsure of things.

it has been quite a drama lately.
as soon as the announcement was made, things have calmed a little bit.
yet, it is like a morning after a storm in movies.
you suffer from a hangover-like state.
still unsure what is waiting for you ahead, but you know you have to just sail.
while hoping for everyone a good fortune.

a slow sunday, and it was a raining one.
sort of wrapped up the week pretty early with a massage in the afternoon.
then soon after that, sat quietly in front of the computer doing some work.

today finally i went to the church for the first time in many weeks.
though i was a little bit distracted during the service,
i am still grateful for the service.

right before the pastor finished preaching,
he told us how unpredictable life can be.
and, as you can expect, he gave an example of a healthy person passing away.
normal, cliche.
all was normal except that this time it is someone that my family knows.
he was a full-timer in my church.

his name is Tarigan. he is my John the Baptist.
i still can remember quite vividly the time i took the step, approaching the pond he was in.
i am sure he had baptized hundreds of people before me,
yet he still showed that satisfaction after the dip.

and, my own baptism is surely one of the rarest, most awesome events in my life.
i am not writing it for the sake of writing it.
there was really a weird something happening that day.
i can't tell you exactly what, but it was just magical.
we are surely going to miss you sir.

and, lastly, when i was going out of the church,
i was passed with the invitation to join the teen service.
ha! what a compliment to end the week!
thank you boy.

lately rain has been pouring heavily.
it has reached the point where i kind of miss sun.
even the hot burning sun with its own unique smell.
surprisingly i want summer to come sooner.
tired with the rain and the flood obviously.

anyway, i am going to move my blog somewhere else.
the address here is too obvious to hide who is the owner.
so, change of blog for the new year for the new job for the new town.