Sparrow-hearted sailor.....

2012-01-09T02:52:00.002+08:00

i am waiting for my next flight to medan at 7.40

and i cant sleep now at lcct, kuala loumpou (as the steward pronounced it)

so i decide to blog!

let's talk about everything,

start with 2012.

i feel excited about this year for things that i dont know

maybe because i kind of get my freedom from studying

or maybe because i am trying to write down my wildest dream ever

sounds like too late, but in this case i guess,

late is better than never, right?

next, my resolutions.

i have never come with any serious one before.

this year i started with some on new year's eve.

and fulfilled one of them 3 hours into the new year!

i created a weibo account for myself!

and since i am starting to formulate my wildest dream,

i have set a few of wild resolutions!

hope really could fulfill that.

next,

this chair i am sitting is really not comfortable

my back is aching!

okay, will try to get some sleep

and if i achieve that crazy wild dream,

will let u know! :)

that last holiday trip

2012-01-03T23:50:00.003+08:00

before i went for the trip to taiwan last december,

i watched this anime called letter bee.

letter bee basically is a name for "post-man" in this anime.

what makes a letter bee special is that in their world each city is separated with kind of desert.

and cruel monsters are lurking outside cities, so they need letter bees.

(at least this what my bro told me! LOL)

each letter bee has his own unique ability.

and there goes a senior of our hero in this anime,

he examines our hero and says, "his ability is his kindness"...

well...

i was half holding my laugh.

i had goosebumps.

i told myself, "i guess this cheesy thing works on that lil kid that ate siomay every day at 5.30pm waiting for the regular anime to be broadcasted"

and then, the next morning i flied to Taiwan.

during our trip, we did a lot of things.

it was a great one, but very tiring.

there was also my shen chia-yi hunting that should have a separate section to talk about

but trust me, it was a close one. :D

(even now, am listening to that song #freakfans)

the trip itself is a great one,

and we should talk about it other times.

let's now talk about the places.

HK and Taiwan.

i've been to both before.

however, i could remember little about everything there.

so this trip was like a fresh new thing for me.

HK is a great place to visit.

to shop.

to eat.

to visit my cousin.

and you can spend all day long just to shop.

and eat.

the price is good! :)

honestly,

the crowd is a bit too much for me.

but really having a local companion is awesome.

when our cousin came out to accompany us,

that was my best time in HK.

really thankful for him that only had a 2 hour sleep the night before.

and for taiwan,

i am crazy about this place.

i guess good food,

good shopping place,

pretty HK police officers,

smoking hot HK girls,

these dont win my heart.

they won my money though.

but then,

i guess i will want to stay in Taiwan. :)

and i think it is because of the people there.

i guess they have the same ability as our letter bee.

kindness.

i guess kindness wins my heart.

i think, together with my necklace,

i left my heart in taiwan.

and this is for the second time.

i wonder what will happen during my third visit.

today is christmas!

2011-12-24T23:58:00.000+08:00

apparently i successfully blog something today.

thanks to this hotel! best hotel so far.

i have gone roughly 20 xmases (consciously).

honestly speaking i really am dreamin of that white xmas.

i guess one day i should visit states in this jolly season.

this year i am in taiwan.

i cant tell you how, but this time xmas is so goooood.

not because that perhaps i could be at the same place as shen chia yi at any point of time.

but because it is just different.

i was a person without plan.

i planned on the fly.

then, after observing,

i realized that i should start planning.

then i started.

i started to plan everything.

from the simplest to my wildest dream.

of course not as good as the good planners that you may know.

but, i planned.

however,

i now get worried easily when i know i might not have what it takes.

then in these three days, i realize i should go back a step.

now i know i have to let go the final realization to the Script Writer.

i know some twists might look impossible to happen.

but, when the writer wants to write it, it needs to happen.

i think that's enough for jnow.

i have finished my toilet business.

now going to count down for xmas,

with all those xmas songs!

2 hours to go.

happy birthday script writer.

syalala- title is never of importance

2011-12-22T00:40:00.002+08:00

will be flying off in 8 hour time.

2009 was to japan, 2010 was to phuket, and this year is to taiwan!

excited!

actually, i just came back from indo after a 10-day trip there.

it was great there as usual.

business resumed as usual,

gaining back my 2 kgs of the 6 kgs i lost during my last semester.

am really thankful for this year.

especially for musical in october.

got to know people that i didnt really know before. :)

and those people really has helped to fill-up some space in my 2011 life. :)

dewi guan-im - of course she tops this list, no question

glenn - for talking non-sense with me during rehearsal

janette - my vocal instructor for this year

ong - for wrapping up my book since my mum last time did that

vanessa, mardian, ghon, aldo, eggie, and many morrrreeee.

and of course,

Shen Chia-Yi - for my favorite movie of the year!

never mind the golden horse, you will win it next year!

and also am really thankful for the multiplication this year.

my blog followers have increased tremendously.

infinite% !!!

--> calculation: 2-0/0*100%

I have been quite lucky this year.

being replied by Sidney early this year and Eboue later on this november.

saw a Surabaya wedding organizer that looked like Sandra Dewi.

i guess i might get to see Shen Chia-yi for real. :D

if i do, i will shave my head bald next year! HA!

time to sleep!

although a bit unlikely,

hope could post something during the trip!

ci vediamo belli!

hi!!

2011-12-10T18:01:00.002+08:00

seminggu ini banyak yg terjadi.

salah satunya berakirnya suda kebarista-an gue.

cukup sibuk ini dan itu siapin diri buat ke indo,

dan abis itu ke taiwan...

singkat cerita, 2 jem lagi gua mau pulang!

dan ini ada sedikit hadiah dari gue! :)

walao rada ancur, tapi baikla diliat niatnya. BUAKAKA

mungkin 2011 ini bakal jadi "na xie nian"

sambil nonton2 tampang dodol gue,

marila kita refleksi hal2 baik yang suda terjadi.

dan bersyukur. :)

btw, 3 hari lalu gua tepat 5 taon di negara ini.

haih. beta kangen tanah air!

ya suda met nonton.

ciao belli! :)

link berguna:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FyjGRA5vNk8&feature=youtu.be

http://top10pinyinlyrics.blogspot.com/2011/09/translation-of-hu-xia-na-xie-nian.html

merry christmas and happy new year in advance!! :)

si barista yang imut part 2

2011-12-04T02:40:00.003+08:00

kira2 bgitula pertemuan petama gua dengan si barista imut.

tapi, pertemuan kedua, dan benernya terakir gua juga, jau lebi menarik.

si pertemuan kedua terjadi kira2 beberapa hari kemudian,

hari itu gua baru pulang dari sekola.

seperti biasa gua ke ruang blakang buat menyiapkan diri.

masukin baju, pake apron, dan sisir yang ganteng.

abis itu, seperti biasa, gua nge-cek sape aja yang bertugas hari itu.

setela ditelusuri...

andreas....

xxx (trainee)....

yyy (attached dari branch laen)

Pei Ying!

ternyata si barista kerja di hari itu!

gua pun cukup senang,

gimana kaga? akirnya batalion gua ada cewe kece nya!

terus gua pun lenggang kangkung ke depan,

pengen ngobrol2 ama si barista imut dengan barista2 laennya.

tapi nasib berkata laen...

baru semenit di depan, si barista imut (BI) suru gue lap2 meja, sama bersi2 sampah.

dengan sigap gua bilang IYA.

tapi sembari bersi2, nurani gua berontak.

berbisik, si nurani bilang "loh, kok gua diperintah anak baru yak -_-"

tapi sambil menghibur diri gue membales si nurani,

"gak ape nur!, mungkin persahabatan murni mulaenya begini!"

setela selesai beberes, gua pun kembali ke kaunter,

mau ngobrol2 lagi sama yang laen....

tiba tiba....

si BI suru gua itung uang di mesin kasir.

-____________________________-......

gua jadi bingung. dan si nurani pun ikut bingung.

tapi dengan lagak cool gua bales, "okay."

sambil itung uang, sambil mikir,

tiba2 gua diberi hikmat mcgyver.

si otak bilang,

"eh dodol. gua rasa si imut itu manajer lo....."

jadi selama ini gua belagak jadi senior di dpan orang yg sbenernya manajer gua?!

perasaan nano nano pun muncul.

tengsin, malu, lucu, gengsi, screwed-up, dsb.

tapi dasar kebanyakan nntn pelem,

gua pun berkata sama si otak,

"tak, gapape, mari kita buktiin ama si manajer ini, kita bisa!"

dan super-barista mode: on!

5 jem berlalu....

tapi yang namanya emang uda lama ga kerja,

gua pun keteteran. dan bego nya gua pun ter-expose jelas.

dan seperti yang bisa ditebak,

si manajer imut pun mara2 dan senewen kyk PMS.

ditambah satu trainee dan satu barista attachment (dia ini si passionate barista!)

maka hasil kerja kami pun ncekadut.

closing paling ancur selama gua kerja....

tapi...

yang namanya kebanyakan nntn pelem.

gua pun akirnya berikrar di hari itu.

gua bakal jadi super-barista dalam sisa dua minggu kerja gua ini.

gua buktiin ama cecunguk2 ini kalo gue emang bisa!

dan hari ini, waktu gua tulis ini,

uda seminggu dari dua minggu trakir gua.

tentunya gua sangat senang memberi tau kalian progress gua.

kalo guee,

KAGA IMPROVE!!!!! -____-

ternyata seminggu itu ga cukup waktu....

tapi satu yang gua syukuri,

gua ga kerja lagi sama si manajer imut.

kenape?

karna benernya imut itu bukan satu2 nya deskripsi die.

die itu garang, suka snewenan, dan ngerokok...

tapi satu lagi sisi luar biasanya.

dia baru berumur 20.

emang uda gila dunia.

si barista yang imut

2011-11-30T01:13:00.003+08:00

petama2.

siapkan diri lo orang untuk dengar cerita panas brikut..

sebab jadi barista seringkali kita panas.

kalo bukan si hati yang panas.

ya emang si udara panas.

maklum ceritanya kita mesti buat kopi,

cuci gelas, panasin kue, sampe hal ga jelas kayak nunjukin mrt dobi got dimana.

nah!

barista di tempat gua kerja uda semenjak lama,

isinya cowo, cowo, dan cowo.

nah (lagi)!

di suatu minggu setela gua maen bola ujan2an.

gua meng-iyakan store-manager gua untuk bantuin closing

benernya uda mau pingsan,

tapi karena gua berhati mulia dan berbudi pekerti dan luhur,

akhirnya gua datang.

tak disangka, tak dinyana.

JENG JENG!

tiba2 ada barista imut yg lagi jaga store gua.

akirnya masa 7 taon kelaparan dan kekeringan lewat juga!

nah intinya,

gua itu masuk shift malem, jadi si doi bole cao.

jadi setela gua sampe, ga lama dia pun masuk ke ruang belakang buat siap2 pulang.

nah terus entah gimana, gua pun butuh ambil sesuatu di ruang belakang.

......

sebelon lanjut mari gua luruskan dulu,

itu gua bener2 lagi butuh ambil sesuatu,

dan bukan kegatelan cari alesan ke belakang buat ketemu si barista imut!

sumpa ga pake boong!

nah

waktu di belakang,

gua pun ketemu si doi.

terus gua teringat tentang langkah2 menjadi barista top.

nomer 1. elo itu mesti ramah!

ramah tamah, ramah lingkungan, ramah hughes (si peramal top) dsb.

lalu gua dengan PD sejuta,

gua mulae basa basi. terus gua nanya,

"eh what is your name?"

dia bilang

"Pei Ying"

gua nyaut

"ooo, i am andreas!"

terus gua senyum ramah, dan pamitan mau kerja dulu...

dan gua bangga berhasil menunjukkan attitude barista top

kepada barista muda belia kita ini.

(walao benernya gw masi ga becus bikin kopi nya)

kira2 bgitula pertemuan petama gua dengan si barista imut.

tapi, pertemuan kedua, dan benernya terakir gua juga, jau lebi menarik.

si pertemuan kedua terjadi kira2 beberapa hari kemudian,

hari itu....

bersambung.....

*maap yak gua ngantuk maksimum

besok janji lanjut lagi........

that passionate barista

2011-11-29T02:56:00.003+08:00

as many folklores started,

this time i'll start with "once upon a time"

......

once upon a time,

there was this barista doing his attachment in my branch.

ah ya, some of you might have no idea, actually i am working part-time,

in one of the cafe-chains.

he is one hell of a passionate barista.

one day, i believe, he will make it to the top.

so, in that fateful shift i met him.

i overheard him teaching a new barista.

he asked that new guy,

"do you know what is one important tool that a barista needs?"

a question on theory!

that crossed my mind, and i believe the same did on the new guy's mind too.

then the new barista started answering.

"pitcher!"

"wrong!" replied the passionate barista (pb)

"ermm, spoon?!"

"wrong!"

"... erm... the heating machine??!"

"also wrong~"

starting to look helpless, the new guy gave his last shot,

"milk!!"

okay, we can see how confused our new guy was.

milk is never a tool.

but honestly, i also had no idea what the answer would be at that time.

then our PB asked,

"give up, bro?.."

"yes...."

"okay, so the tool that you need the most is.... passion"

he continued,

"in every cup you make, you have to put your passion in it"

all of sudden,

i was stunned. and this question popped out.

WHAT ANIME AM IN?!!!!

yakitate! japan? born to cook?

but really,

with additions of background music and a blowing wind to blow his hair,

this will make a perfect scene in any hollywood movie.

if he is less a mister-know-everything,

maybe i will take that statement less comical.

especially when he is not yet that knowledgable.

i am sorry bro if one day you read this.

i just didnt expect that coming. lol.

anyway,

buona fortuna fratello barista!

katanya...

2011-11-23T01:36:00.002+08:00

katanya,

perjuangan kita bukanlah melawan darah dan daging,

emang bener itu!

kita itu juga melawan,

buku cetak + handout slides.

emang selayaknya kalo alkitab itu jadi

buku best seller!

*balik belajar lagi

He made everything beautiful in its time - not from CK tang

2011-11-18T23:29:00.002+08:00

i guess it is right as Giddens put it.

deep down we long for that puppy love.

where reality (and sanity) has not taken over our consciousness.

we plan.

we want stability.

house.

second puberty.

menopause.

that's why people argue that puppy love won't remain.

it just impossible.

salah satu argumentasi paling terkenal bilang,

"mau makan apa lo? makan cinta? apa makan batu rasa cinta?"

mungkin mereka bener.

but, i think it is still,

sweet.

when i almost cross the finish line of being a student,

then i realize how stupidly sweet is all that.

realizing that almost impossible to relive everything again.

that stirs me. scares the shit out of me.

and i think that's why i love this movie this much.

great job Giddens! (i'll watch ur other movies)

and, let me enjoy the last bit of being carefree. :)

you are right Solomon,

He made everything beautiful in its time.

another apple

2011-11-18T18:37:00.000+08:00

http://bjiahao.deviantart.com/art/Shen-ChiaYi-268447953

yea. i suppose so. :)

the apple of my eye

2011-11-15T21:35:00.005+08:00

when i should have been cramming for exam,

i am digressing. this time, i blog.

read this blog while listening to this to help you cast the boredom away :)

today, i watched you're the apple of my eye.

this movie as other good asian movies really stirred me up.

while i was coming back home with my bro,

we were talking about this movie while i was having my gong-cha for the day.

i just cant resist to love this movie.

it is sweet, stupid.

and it is so realistic.

it depicts freakingly good,

how fun the high school life could be,

how great college life could be,

how hard we were in love those days,

how stupid we were during those days,

the day when you are happy when you see her putting up a pony tail,

when you talked on the phone for ages,

when even studying can be so much fun,

even if you haven't felt that for ages, or even at all (like me :p),

watching them, will excite you!

at least, it excited me so much.

the movies left you with a lot of what-ifs.

a way too much that it still arouses me until now.

it realistically reminded me of how many what-ifs that i could have done,

...........

and the call Chia-Yi made,

and those lines:

Guy: you want let me to chase after you again?

Girl: *laughing*... hmm.. I am afraid this time, not possible.

..........

that moment is....

is magical

is there really going to be another time?

anyway,

the movie ended not as you wish it could happen in disney.

it happens a lot of times in our lives,

we do not choose something that in fact stirs us inside.

my prof said man looks after the beauty.

woman on the other hand looks after stability.

i know it is often believed that 'spark' is not the key.

some experts argue that this 'sparking' love is a waste of time.

but, is it really so?

shouldnt we go for the one that arouse us?

isnt that adventurous edge that makes this short life worth living?

after pondering that much inside my lil brain,

we reached home, and gone also my gong-cha.

and struck me once more,

how close i am to the end of my college life.

it is almost gone like my gong-cha.

thanks to the experts,

I have been single thruout my life.

and at times, i have been scarred to have a relationship.

wishing for that successful one that leads straightaway to marriage.

and, when i have one in the future,

i'll make sure it is an amazing one.

stirring me inside out.

will not let my life following a blueprint of others.

and will not let others to copy mine.

i think, we should have one of our own to tell.

and (trust me this is going to be last "and"),,,

for all the puppy loves i experienced,

for me, it is not a waste of time. :)

by now, i have been digressing for almost an hour.

if only i had Chia-Yi, maybe i will study harder.

but really, i will enjoy this last exam week as an undergraduate.

the very few last sips of my college life.

lastly,

thank God for inventing this eros,

powerful it is!

not only hands and legs, it cost uriah his life.

thank God i am still single.

i really am enjoying whatever i am doing now.

when it is really the time,

i promise to let it burn as it is supposed to be.

*still waiting for my turn patiently here :)

francesca benvenuti

2011-11-10T23:31:00.003+08:00

i used to hate italy with everything comes with it.

it started from their (soccer) national team.

and to be exact, it started when i knew that my childhood friend supporting Juventus and italian national team

the fact that italy is more successful than england (the one i am supporting) was one of the factors.

the other was simple whenever we played Winning Eleven (games in playstation),

it was bloody difficult to beat this italy.

however, the latter was not that pertinent anymore as the time goes.

I became a better WE player than my friend and i ended up killing his italy again and again,

with england or even weaker team. #satisfiedguy

However, I still hated italy

and the fact that many girls are supporting italy because of that sole reason.

that the players are handsome.

that really didnt help.

to put it in one sentence:

i just hated Italy.

but,

this francesca benvenuti changes everything.

if you ever read the ads on smu saying something like "SMU is different",

i dont really believe in that.

but if SMU is really that different,

Francesca might be the x-factor.

the worse thing she did to me?

i am now wishing that i could live my student life forever.

la mia professoressa e' fantastica :)

2011-11-07T18:05:00.002+08:00

si customer cewe yg kmrn bertengger di sbux,

spertinya dia orang indo.

dan.

DIA

TERNYATA

ADA

SMU..................

perlukah saya ketok ruangannya,

terus kenalan untuk melepas masa lajang ini.

#gejolakjiwaanakmudayangsensitifkalokatasijarot

in my limited time, and limited vocabulary

2011-10-28T11:30:00.002+08:00

sometimes, we dont treasure our treasures.

and looking out there to care for others' treasures.

and just to come back home and realize treasures mostly are gone.

so, trust me.

starting from now on, i am treasuring you.

my treasures.

2011-10-19T00:49:00.002+08:00

do we say things that people would love to hear.

or do we say what we think.

more often than not, we do the first one.

i guess,

being free to say what we think would be great. :)

2011-10-18T00:16:00.003+08:00

my schedule is messed up!

my lovely last semester is going to be another fantastic roller coaster ride!

i am really sorry to everyone that is also affected.

buffet is cancelled.

and many things more are cancelled.

unless the activity is on weekend.

so the good news,

night cycling is still on!

pray hard that this body does not sore that much.

just a few weeks away from that massage.

hooo....

oz, oh oz!

2011-10-17T01:55:00.004+08:00

is it brain that we need at the moment?,

or is it heart?

do we need courage the most instead?

or....

maybe..

we just need to go home.

go back home.

where we can think.

love.

and be fearless.

at home.

sincerely,

wandering soul

2011-10-13T23:49:00.002+08:00

closing to the last 7 weeks of my school's life.

but,

i am not as reflective about it as much as i thought i should be.

i have the mixed feeling though.

will miss brasbasah and everything about it.

dont know what to do.

i decide to study. weird.

musical part 2

2011-10-11T01:29:00.004+08:00

i understand why people love twisted stories in movies.

just simply because how easy people's lives are twisted.

how they move from one side to the other.

people love to say "it has been a roller coaster ride for me"

come on dude, most of the time we face more than a roller coaster.

we are let to fall from thousands of feet, from a plane, without parachute.

but one thing that , we, christians, know that is God cares.

now, back to musical.

in celebrating 2 weeks after a fruitful prayer meeting.

I would love to talk a bit abt what happened 2 weeks ago.

to begin with, i am not a person that fancies altar call that much.

i am often missed by the preachers in variety of occasions.

in youth service, normal service, retreat, you name it.

i dont know why, it just happens often. weird i know.

i never complaint though.

as i know if God wants to do something with me.

He can do it without that particular preacher.

i've grown used to it.

so, i had similar expectation for this prayer meeting.

for me this kind of prayer meeting is not different to normal service.

apparently it is different.

i dont know about the other prayer meetings. but this one is certainly different.

three of my good friends prayed for me.

i believe, God knows what i needed.

apparently i needed the most to pray.

and, secondly, simple prayers from my friends.

not that big prayer from big God's servants.

they were just simple prayers by simple servants of a big God.

How much i appreciate my Dewi Kwan-Im.

that much i appreciate you, friends!

Andri Kecap

he has been a great friend. i always believe he is a very capable person.

happy for him that he seized all the opportunity to stretch himself to serve God even more this time round.

and i still believe that we havent seen the best out of him yet.

he is a great guy, with a great character. thanks for the prayer mate!

looking forward to working with you again!

Si Artis (lorena)

ah! when i thought prayer meeting had finished, she came to me.

asked whether she could pray for me. and of course, why not? a prayer from a popular singer :P

She has been a great friend too. i have not really talked about serious stuff with her.

we were similar to certain extent. tend to arrive late. happy go lucky. loves to eat. second kid in the family. born in the middle of the year.

it is just that she is more in all the adjectives (lateness is worse than me, more carefree, older etc) ;p

enjoying our friendship well. hope you do enjoy too, tis! :)

i intended to pray for andri and manda back, but there was not enough time.

too bad. ;D

Jenita

the last prayer with her was awesome too. we are together the remnant of old Blessed.

praying with her was as if i was praying with my own family.

i did not know how much strength was poured during that prayer.

will not write much about her. she is just an amazing friend!

you have embarked on some more challenging journey (you know what)

i know that you'll be doing okay! :)

i also wanted to pray with FA blessed as one family.

too bad it could not happen. but happy to do great thing tgt with them. :)

and one precious thing i learned.

i learned how to surrender better.

terima kasih Tuhan.

just another nonsense

2011-10-10T19:30:00.006+08:00

saw one of my good friends' tweet earlier.

it went sth like: "the fact that a guy serves in a church, does not guarantee much"

like some of you know, i like to comment here and there,

talk crap. get serious on almost nothing. (although sometimes can get upset too) :p

so feel free if u want to comment. especially, err the statement's owner. ;D

first of all, i'd like to let u know that i dont know whether the statement is right or wrong.

if you love to have some conclusion on it, i dont have.

so, you might want to stop here. :)

since you continue to read onto this line, let's start discussing! :)

first of all, actually i have about the same idea as you, my friend.

however, i'd love to show a a little different argument to this.

for me, generally, the fact that a guy serving in a church guarantees something better.

not that i am defending my fellow male friends.

it is as simple as:

"does the fact that a doctor working in a Mt. Elizabeth guarantee much?"

the answer, i guess, it depends.

if the doctor is compared to doctors in the SE Asia area, generally it does, doesnt it?

like one has tweeted back, how much is much?

i am also not sure about how much,

but generally, i guess it guarantees better than if a guy is not ministering.

having said that,

generally only means generally.

majority will be like that. but outliers must be present.

yet, i believe using one criterion to assess a man is never enough.

we know BMW is a good brand for car.

generally, a BMW is more luxurious than a Honda.

but being a BMW does not always mean it is a fantastic car.

a wrecked BMW, for example, is of course not good.

and in this case, a brand new Civic is of course better, isnt it?

so what i think is: use more criteria to assess our man/woman! :)

and to my good friend that inspires this post,

wish your ncc-guitar-man has as good heart as his guitar-playing. ;)

just sharing a bit of my thought.

feel free to whack me with your comments. :)

Mighty to save, iman babibuta dan anak tukang buah...

2011-10-09T02:55:00.006+08:00

lagu di greja hari ini si Might to save.

alkisah, dolo waktu gua baru nyampe singapur.

tiba2 gua sakit aneh, dan ga sembuh2.

si sakit bermodel demam berkala gtuh.

siang sehat malem sakit....

terus tiba lah hari minggu gua ke yrc.

terus gua lupa siapa si wl, tapi dia nyanyi lagu ini.

terus, dgn iman seadanya yg rada membabi buta,

gua nyanyi semangat 45, lagu praise lompat kyk besok uda kiamat.

alhasil, sampe lagu worship seblon firman, gua uda ngos2an.

keringet becucuran bak maen bola semalem suntuk.

dalem hati gua tau, ini pasti bkl masuk angin.

terus malem sakit makin parah.

besok balik ke neighborhood doctor.

tapi tak disangka tak dinyana,

gua sembuh.....

selaen itu,,,

hari ini gua juga tiba2 teringat si anak tukang buah.

temen gua yg pernah gua post beberapa taon silam.

dia unik abis. dan gua bingung kenapa gua bisa kenal dia..

tapi skrg gua ternyata punya kenalan2 yg rada mirip dia.

kyknya benar teori yg bilang kalo kita tu attracted to dan attracting orang2 yg spesifik.

hmmm....

jadi....

semoga si anak tukang buah baik2 aja....

dewi kwan-im!!!!

2011-10-08T03:04:00.001+08:00

si Dewi kwan-im...

kalo kalian ga tau sapa itu si pricil.

beliau org plg kiri di foto ini! :)

seandainya sahabatku

2011-10-08T02:06:00.003+08:00

rambut masi basah, dan gua harus bikin bahan FA.

tapi khalayak ramai uda tdur.

alhasil, gua mulae ngelamun, dan mikir2 aneh lagi...

buntut2nya gua kepikiran bagaimana gua bisa mulae cariin si putri.

semuanya mulae dari nyanyi ini di dpan pembesar musikal.

si artis, felix, andri, bombino, delly, nathan.

tentu aja di ritme yg cuman gua yg paham.

dan di pelafalan yg cuman gua yg bisa denger.

tapi mgkn ini sala satu singing session yg plg gua enjoy. :)

seandainya bisa minta videonya dari andri....

2011-10-07T14:05:00.002+08:00

another song that colored my high school life.

tried to sing it a couple of times during karaoke session.

but of course, difficult for me! :S

sorry for the small volume. you need to increase the volume to listen it at the humane level.

anyway. enjoy! :)

2011-10-06T17:03:00.001+08:00

i fell straight away for lily allen the first time i heard she sang this.

i remembered well, it was on the mtv. :)

#anakgaulMTV

post ga jelas part 1

2011-10-06T01:21:00.004+08:00

akirnya hari ini gua mutusin buat nulis soal musikal.

sebetulnya, si hasrat belun datang.

kalo ditelusuri salah satu alesannya karena gua pingin nulis banyaaaaaaak,

dan gua ga suka nulis panjang.

karena gua selalu percaya kita generasi yg ga suka baca. ;p

alhasil, gua mutusin buat nulis seiprit seiprit.

tentang perjalanan pemuda lugu bermodalkan cinta selama 5 bulan terakir

setela 5 bulan berlalu,

gua makin yakin akan satu hal.

(bukan tentang perasaan ini sih) #linesatria

tentang, impresi pertama gua ttg orang, acap kali salah.

kalo di telusuri, ini ude terjadi sejak masi klas smp 2.

tmen yg paling pingin gua tonjok sejak minggu pertama sekola,

dia jadi salah satu tmen baek gua.

tmen bae di FA gue (waktu SMP),

dia jadian sama cewe yg gua perna suka. #satriaabis :((

kembali lagi, gua diingetin akan hal yg sama.

it is about giving others the second chance. be full of grace.

ada jutaan orang di luar sana yg punya hati emas,

tapi tampang minta ditonjok. :)

walao ada kebalikannya. tapi ya suda la... ;p

intinya:

gua bersyukur dapet banyak temen baru.

ada yg jadi mayan akrab.

walao gua ga tau bakal selama apa deketnya.

karena keliatannya semuanya uda mulai balik ke kesibukan masing2.

dan sperti musikal2 terdahulu, biasanya yg satu ini cukup

anget2 taik ayam. :)

tapi tak apa. gua menikmati kerja bareng kalian. :)

ya cuap2 part pertama selese disini...

btw di post ini, gua pingin mengutarakan syukur buat tmen kita si pricil itu.

yg selalu bantuin gua ganti baju, celana, kolor (loh!), dsb.

dia sih mantep abis! tampangnya tenang. bawaannya cool.

literally no sweat as well!!

ketika smua orang panas. tampang masam, dan mulut mulae ga bisa dijaga.

dia tetep santai dan memancarkan kedamaian.

uda kayak dewi kwan-im gtu. :D

literally, she was always there when i was in need.

nampaknya bung shilton beruntung! :)

langgeng terus temans! :)

terima kasih Tuhan.

2011-10-05T01:54:00.002+08:00

beberapa hari terakir, gua jalan2 terus ama bonyok.

gua pengen banget nge-blog ttg pasca-musikal,

tapi kayaknya si hasrat belon bergelora.

tapi tidak buruk (DT: not bad*), gua dpt sedikit pencerahan hr ini.

hari ini kita bufei sushi, supper mie, dan benernya pingin makan beancurd.

tapi setela selese supper, kita kenyang banget dan memutuskan buat pulang.

dan gua sadar:

kalo waktu itu ga banyak.

mau supper aja ga cukup.

buat kerjaen hal baik aja ga cukup.

jadi kayaknya sayang kalo menit2 kita diisi dgn hal yg krg bguna.

contohnya:

nulis post ngawur gini instead of tidur awalan....

2011-09-25T01:14:00.002+08:00

as if you know me well, you know that i like to observe.

observing things happening around me. people. just anything. anyone.

lately i was surprised to find out a few things.

1. when you try to be smart, sometimes you have to know the limit.

you try to be smart in answering people's question. and most of the time you look irritating.

you sound irritating. you become irritating.

i have no issue, but others? hope you realize what path you are taking.

2. how some people can be that impolite towards someone older.

i have a similar difficulty towards authority.

sometimes, you can find me complaining and all that.

i also like to joke with people. bully others.

but at least i know, the respect should be still given.

apparently some people dont think so. or they might operate under different moral rules.

for me, this one is unacceptable.

next time, when we (i and you) moan on some situation.

i guess, we should check ourselves first.

think, should start from the man in the mirror, dude :)

btw, anything i observe is not concerning anyone who is reading this.

so if you think i am talking about you. you must be wrong! :)

unless if you are younger than me, then....

HAHA! just kidding! :)

2011-09-23T13:48:00.002+08:00

just had another experience, proving this cliche sweet statement:

²⁷And who of you by worrying and being anxious can add one unit of measure (cubit) to his stature or to the ^[w]span of his life?^(B)

i am graduating!

8 weeks to the end of these fabulous four years

and a trip to taiwan is looking good for the winter! :)

2011-09-23T02:11:00.000+08:00

setela setaon ga tulis pake bahasa indo.

hari ini gua memutuskan untuk nulis indo! #dirgahayuRI

dari sekian banyak hobi yg gua punya,

salah satu hobi setengah mateng gua adalah dalam hal bahasa.

tapi sayang kemampuan bahasa gua cetek.

ngomong aja masi suka kumur kumur.

nah, tanpa tunda2,

skarang mari kita mulai topik malam ini.

kali ini soal si insyaAllah dan keindahannya.

kadang orang suka protes kenapa gua suka pake istilah agama lain.

tapi padahal kalo dari arti harafiahnya, itu hanya sekedar berarti 'kalo Tuhan berkehendak'.

cuman yah itu versi bahasa arabnya.

dan gua percaya teman kita yang kalvinis, jg bakal suka sikap hati yg begini.

salah kaprah lainnya adalah:

kita suka bilang org yg ngmg gtu kurang iman.

soalnya kesannya dia seakan2 bilang 'yah mudah2an"

pdhal seperti gua bilang, itu artinya sbenernya "kalo Tuhan berkehendak"

jadi coba kita renungin.

kalo kita bisa idup dgn sikap bgitu.

gua pikir itu cara hidup yg baik.

kita lakukan bagian kita sebaiknya.

dan hasil akhirnya: insyaAllah baik jadinya!

dan kalo Tuhan mau hasilnya jelek, yauda. bersyukur. Dia suda berkehendak :)

sala satu tmen bae gua perna bilang:

katanya, semestinya, suda selayakanya, kita itu seharusnya bersyukur selalu buat:

hal hal yang uda dikasi ke kita --> jelas kristal (crystal clear)! ;p

hal hal yang belon dikasi ke kita --> (kata salomo ada waktu buat ini buat itu). ;D

dan, hal hal yang ga akan dikasi ke kita. :)

yah demikian ulasan setengah mateng kali ini.

inshaAllah berkenan buat yang baca. :)

pada akhirnya inshaAllah cuman sebuah kata.

apa la pentingnya sebuah kata.

kalo ga suka yah jangan dipake. :)

tapii,, inti nya...

inshaAllah, gua bakal nyanyi lebi bagus dari sidney mohede tgl 1 oktober. :p

2011-09-21T01:35:00.002+08:00

what i learned recently is that not everyone can keep a secret.

and to my disappointment is that when the rule to have fun is to keep a secret.

it looks so easy to me.

but, some people just dont know how to play it.

or maybe some people have different set of rules.

too bad! but at least i know who not to play with next time. :))

actually, not exactly who though.

anyway,, boo! not fun.

the bright side: there is nothing that is very serious (excluding salvation).

learned it from my bridging teacher. :)

anyway,,

the last lil secret i told. i think it is safe.

you are good at keeping secret, aren't you, my friend? ;)

2011-09-19T01:42:00.002+08:00

just read an interesting quote a few days ago.

it goes something like this: it advises you not to do sth that you are not good at.

and of course, it has that religious accent too.

it struck me.

i have been doing things that i am not good at.

i have loved what i am told not to.

and the most well-known people telling me this? maybe, titiek puspa.

and the one that did not live long in my mind; which is good.

but that very attitude brought me to be in the GAYA 2009: maria monique.

i am grateful i joined that bunch of people.

when the production ended, i went back home.

stood in front of my home. did not want to go inside.

in my happiness, i was asking myself:

would i ever get anything better than this.

i feared the answer is no.

that was 2 years ago.

honestly, i really did not experience anything better than that.

at least, i think so at the moment.

and, the very same attitude makes me in another musical production.

as i said few posts ago. there is this problem.

that i know what, but i dont know how to solve.

it is still there.

i dont have the answer yet...

but one thing that i am pretty sure at the moment.

i can tell that.

this mencari putri the musical might be the most plain musical title i have ever been.

and...

yet, this is the best musical up to now.

and i seldom say anything 'is the best'.

i dont often compliment things, unless it is arsenal and God.

i think...

i love you guys. (i cant believe i have said this so many times). :)

and that particular attitude,

maybe i've got it from watching anime too much

especially naruto. apparently it is not that good for my health.

happily expectant

2011-09-16T00:02:00.003+08:00

i dont know how and where to start this blog.

i just came back from the musical practice.

things happened.

the adam, eve and serpent scenario came vividly alive.

i played my part.

but my intention was this:

"i dont want anyone thought that they sacrifice the most

and the other has not done their part"

i dont want anyone thinks that, including me.

everyone is working hard i believe.

and any particular person loves musical as much as everyone does.

i want them to know this. :))

not to start a fight. instead to comfort them. :))

and honestly, (although i know i am not supposed to say this),

i am tired. :) (that's why i type this, instead of saying it)

but i am happy. expectant.

why?

because i know in this state, i then can see His glory.

i then can run out of power.

and draw the power from the ultimate owner.

and only then, i can find quietness,

know His power, and trust Him...

in this tiredness,

i am happy. i am expectant.

2011-09-15T00:16:00.002+08:00

have been busily practicing for the musical.

hanging out with friends intensively.

have been packed with tons of activities lately.

to be honest i enjoy this.

thank God for the good friends i have.

the highlight of today? went to watch crazy stupid love.

it is good!

but, seriously. i am a bit tired.

i am happy.

but, i guess, as expected, i have not gone enough for God lately.

and tonight this very fact stroke me; that this very part of me yearns for Him.

reminding me that, i can get that peace and happiness only from Him.

ho bisogno di te...

pfc

2011-09-12T22:06:00.002+08:00

just knew a very frightening fact from one good friend.

lucky enough, my ignorance keeps me cool here. still able to write this entry.

......

this post is related to pre-frontal cortex (pfc).

some of you must have heard of it from fred toke last saturday.

it is believed to control the most powerful function of our brain.

experts believed it controls all the high-level cognition.

reasoning, solving, and the list goes on and on.

it can be as powerful as this:

for example:

you have this situation.

a girl-friend of yours slap you in the face.

and you start to think this girl is crazy.

then you decide to avoid this girl.

that is normal...

but, it can go like this too:

you will start to think that she likes you.

because if she doesnt like you she will not even dare to touch you.

she never even touches anybody else.

that's why. she likes you!

and you decide to go after her.

this is normal too....

is this?....

i love to call this simulating a scenario.

the example seems not important.

but this has helped people simulate scenario, take action, and be successful.

some found cure for terminal diseases,

some found the most productive way in producing car.

but,

the other some found the most powerful weapon to kill a lot of the others.

and,

some found peace by seeing a situation from the angle that suits them the best.

we love to do this.

to put us in a good frame, and let others become the antagonists.

everyone loves this. including me.

and when a situation is in the past, it is not helped by our others infamous weakness.

we, human beings, tend to have a false memory, that is replacing everything that you cannot remember with false memory that will make you look even more like a protagonist.

as like uncle ben says it,

with great power, comes great responsibility... :)

use pfc wisely!

2011-09-05T15:11:00.002+08:00

Yeah, we gotta start
Looking at the hands of the time we've been given
If this is all we got and we gotta start thinking
If every second counts on a clock that's ticking
Gotta live like we're dying

just checked out on the lyrics.

it is indeed good!

need to live like we're dying like rock lee does. :)

2011-09-04T23:34:00.002+08:00

i once dreamed of singing on a stage.

i knew it was as if i wish i were born caucasian.

it seemed like no baby step available.

i needed to make that leap. and it is hopeless, as i did not know how to jump.

now, i have that chance.

same old same old. cannot fix what i could not fix.

that is the worst when you know what to fix, but dont know how to fix.

25 days away.

i know. if worst comes to worst, one day before i will keep repeating "i surrender all" on my iphone

and tweet sidney mohede the next morning telling him that i wish i were him.

i know he will not reply me this time though.

one thing i am pretty sure. i will work my socks off.

know that talent was not really coming with me into this world.

but hard work was given.

finally, i pray hard that i am always reminded that in every victory,

He is my hope, He is my strength.

hope this musical is the show of how glorious the cross is!

though i dont know how directly it can do that! haha.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wgTBRT-cZls

still that same just-waken-up boy who sings terribly and strums terribly. :))

2011-08-25T01:29:00.003+08:00

i hope i did not upset anyone.

hope everything is okay! :)

2011-08-12T01:12:00.002+08:00

i blogged about this once.

but seeing what is happening to my friend,

i become more certain about this.

i suppose, we, mere human, will note be able to get out from this.

that we always execute action as a function of needs.

we eat because we starve.

we run because we fear.

we sleep because we are tired.

and including this one,

we make friend because we need them in one way or another.

i am not trying to make friendship look shallow.

i just try to make it look more humane.

things that dont really matter

2011-08-11T02:34:00.002+08:00

lately, i was struck by some of christians out there.

They are the kind that does not like when we say that Christ died for everyone.

they complained. they made our God look like as if He is supposedly not that good.

but, when you ask them "so, Our God apparently is not that good?"

they will say, "hey dont question God! he is of course good, but he is just, and he is sovereign too (that apparently made him less good)".

I am puzzled by how they are unhappy just because we say God is extremely good.

I am sad that many have come to know this theory.

as sound as possible the theory might sound, i cant stand how hostile the message was told.

and it makes me feel something wrong about the whole theory.

to make things worse, I dont think any of us can get the ultimate answer until we meet God.

but when we meet Him, I guess none of these things will matter anymore.

i guess it makes us pretty helpless in this particular journey.

2011-07-27T02:07:00.002+08:00

my friend,

you look worried.

you are a nice person, but very difficult to talk to when you are unhappy.

i dont know why you are worried.

but i know everything is going to be fine. :)

this one does not need faith to see - as faith is a proof of what cannot be seen.

i know you will not read this.

if only you know, my silence is my faith that everything is gonna be okay.

eh! apparently faith is involved.

i think, eventually, in HIM we need to trust. :)

2011-07-21T00:08:00.002+08:00

today, i went to watch janette's performance at esplanade.

it was simply astonishing.

she sang great. music sounded good and the musicians looked cool!

it made me worried though. what would i be on 1st october?

i think there is a big gap for me to fill in.

but, i dont know what to fill it with.

i am really not sure i can sing anything close to what she was singing.

back to her performance. she was really impressive.

i just have this feeling that she could be that "your-friend-that-appears-in-idol"

hope she has a good career ahead of her! :)

2011-07-04T03:00:00.002+08:00

again, i cant post this in either facebook and twitter.

i am afraid it affects my chance to get married. ha!

anyway, i just wanna share this love that i have.

people may question why i have to approach it this way.

seriously, i dont know.

what i believe is that both of us are proud of how things turn out.

hope one day people can understand.. :)

to avoid any discomfort possibly caused, i just share it here.

it is a sensitive issue after all.

i have a song that tells all.

really pardon my limitation in guitar n singin.

and never never share the link to others. --"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=igeuRx9E6Yc

i love this song! :)

mr xavier

2011-06-27T00:08:00.002+08:00

ohh man! this is my first post of the year!

i blog because it is impossible to write it in facebook or twitter. ;p

so, i had this dream hugging my old friend. and the next day she called me on facebook.

I just have this feeling that I am a few genes away from becoming xavier.

or.. other possibility, I can go to people's dream like leonardo in inception.

the paper..

2010-11-11T23:25:00.002+08:00

as i promised...

before i disappoint you further.. actually this is not really a psych paper.

i should have written a 'research paper' instead. it was what i was supposed to write. -.-"

so....

to begin with...

my hypothesis is: a human being can really do almost anything provided that he believes that the 'anything' is possible.

population: me

sample: things in my life.

this happened quite some time ago...

do you know this question:

"you have 9 balls identical in looks. 8 of them are identical in weight also. you have to weigh it using 'neraca' (forgive me, i really dont know what it is in English). and you are only allowed to weigh three times"

that is easy. i could answer that when i first heard it.

let's raise the difficulty...

let's have 12 balls now. you only have three times also to get the answer.

the first time i heard it. i thought it is an impossible to answer question. so i couldnt answer.

last month, in my office.

my colleague asked me the very same question.

my first reply: is this question possible to be answered?

he answered yes.

i asked him "you heard the answer before?"

he answered yes.

his brother solved it. he then told me and consoled me telling me that the question in fact is very hard. and his brother was kind of special...

at that moment, i knew that i couldn't solve this before last time.

so, it would be the same because i did not think i had grown a lot smarter than i was before.

however, i took the challenge. i decided to try to solve it again.

to my surprise. the assurance that it is a solvable question really is the key.

i could solve it.

i believe this is purely due to the assurance i had got.

my conclusion: we can really do anything as long as we believe.

other proof: i was really bad at sports. i trained myself hard enough until i could play quite a good football. i kind of lost my touch now though due to lack of practice.

my to-be project:

1. working in IBD

2. i am really really bad at singing. but i have to admit i enjoy it. and i think i don't need to explain what i am really doing in this project. i believe you can guess.

I have this 22 january 2011 as a deadline.

by that time, i think i would be able to see whether my hypothesis is right or not.

to think about it, i have my whole life to prove this hypothesis. and i would really like to do so.

after all, it is not something so far away. i want to prove these two things:

Philippians 4:13

and

words from some random grand ma talking about man that can do all things.

i really really want to post something

2010-11-07T01:56:00.003+08:00

I really wanna post something here.

but you know. that cfa thing really doesnt allow me...

anyway...

let me give you a glance of what i want to write.

to begin with, have you ever read any psychology paper?

it is gonna be sth like that... ;p

lately

2010-10-27T01:02:00.002+08:00

i kind of. running out of gas.

don't need that big flame, though.

only need that drop of oil

to get this something inside burning.

yes. a drop of oil.

and a little spark of fire.

i doubt she is the one.

however, i forced myself to believe.

this time round was a bit different.

the light at the end of tunnel is clearer.

suddenly he intervened.

he made the whole thing stop.

and forced me to rethink the whole thing.

and here i am.

realising myself.

haven't gone desperate enough for him.

lately....

you wonder why

2010-09-27T22:48:00.002+08:00

i wonder.

sometimes, we work very hard to solve our problem.

still it seems unsolvable.

one thing, added by another one, and another one, and another one, and...

until you wish for everything just to be somehow skipped.

but in a blink of an eye, suddenly everything is just solved.

in fact you only did a little for that to happen.

and then you are left wondering what you had done.

song of the day:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qoyz62lbgOs

when i listened to it on the radio,

it sounded really really good.

but after a while actually i think it is not that good.

anyway, first impression is all that matters! ;p

enjoy! :)

lalala

2010-09-26T01:18:00.002+08:00

I have a mountain to climb for that test.

just like arsenal who just lost embarrassingly.

in my preparation for the test,

of course i still can slot in time for going to facebook.

then i came across this friend of mine who has gone into a relationship.

without any doubt, i went straight away to my friend's new partner.

i found out this sentence: 'love him always'....

what a statement! :)

not really sure which 'him' she refers to.

but still, it is a bold statement.

i wish i dare enough to say such a thing. lol..

anyway, i want to wish my friend to have a good time with the lady! :)

...

back to the text book. -.-"

the revival of the sailor.

2010-09-22T12:34:00.002+08:00

finally i am back to this realm of the world.
i once thought i am not gonna come back.
blame my sleepy office condition.
and blame my twitter account that has a lil bit too many friends,
which limits my freedom to write.
and of course, writing blog also helps me to look busy.

it has been many many months since the last time i was here.
many things happened.
the highlight would be that i had got my first internship.

and. lately i also have taken many things too seriously.
and just realised it might not be very good for my health. ;p

the worst thing?
I now have too many commitments to fulfill.
a bowl of ginseng soup would not be enough anymore. -.-"
but a little bouquet of love might be sufficient to help me to see off this whole madness. :)

i miss going out wearing my t-shirt, jeans, and sandals.

p.s. it may be very difficult to see the relationship between one line and the others.
that is due to the 'anyhow-ness' of my writing. ;p
and one more thing, i just got in touch again with my (maybe) only high school's classmate left in Singapore. :)

2010-01-25T02:00:00.003+08:00

no regret. no intention of changing the past.

but i envy them..

actually i will never have an option of: all of the above.

yeah. unlike in exam...

2010-01-22T20:10:00.002+08:00

i know now what i wanted to write few days ago.

i just wanted to say that:

i actually dislike people that in front of me look like trust me,

when actually they don't..

and i dislike the most when i can find out about it.

At least, they should try to not let me know.

haih. but i am not bothered to tell them either.

the CEO of Kraft said that we should conserve our energy very very well.

because, we simply only have a limited energy.

2010-01-21T13:22:00.005+08:00

i am thinking of writing a lot of things.

but there are things that can only be kept alone for myself.

ms. luna maya and ms. prita surely has taught us something.

hahh.... too bad.

tulisan sebelun berak

2010-01-10T18:53:00.002+08:00

i haven't written for so long.
so long until these fingers look so rusty in front of the keyboard.
a lil bit of exercise on keyboard is probably important, to prepare me for the new term of school.

i think, the story of me pulling myself out of GAYA is quite known by you.
so i believe, there is no use for me to repeat the same story again.
here i just want to tell the progress of the story.

one political pundit in indonesia once said:
friendship and hatred are not eternal in politics.
as long as there is need, friendship can live.

i quite agree with him. especially with the first statement.
i can actually apply it in this GAYA story.
as predicted. my decision was questioned by many.
perhaps, it is still questioned by many.
However, it wont be forever.
and i can see that things are getting better.

persons who looked to have so much loathe against me,
now, they look okay. they dont look good like it used to be. but okay is enough for me.
i can live with 'okay' condition. :)
as we know together, i am a typical low maintenance friend you can have. :p

i quite envy them; a family called GAYA 2010.
i had my chance though. :)
so mother mary probably will whisper 'let it be'.
besides, i had my one month fattening holiday which i also wouldnt trade with anything else. :)

2009-09-17T02:45:00.003+08:00

today, i had my lunch at mcdonald.
and i saw kids playing cikupa.
the game i used to play in my primary level.
i was kind of surprise to see it being played by the super-modern Singaporean kids.

few days ago, i learned a new terms called 'capability'
in business, it means the ability of the company in combining their different resources.

anyway,,,
when i had my first-ever mega-mc-spicy.
i kind of lament over my super brilliant life so to speak.

...
being born not in the super rich family is a disadvantage.
i in fact could list down a lot,
being not so handsome really is not helpful,
being not talented in many things,
being so much in love with sleeping,
having a low GPA,
having not done any internship,
and many more....

eventually, i realized though,

*being a-low-GPA student,

*somehow involved in a production,
where i need to sell tickets,
i lost 4 tix, and i believe i will be blamed for the loss.
sometimes it was my fault.
but here, i believe i play a Jesus role.
but who cares. nobody will give it a damn.
nobody will take it.
because there is an easy way out, me.
can be done while watching tv, posting a blog,
even while cleaning your ass from shit (cebok)

* asking people to come and watch.
somehow, i was wrong in their eyes.
and i became a Judas.
or even worse, pharisian probably they see me.
being hated by unreasonable reasons.

* pulling out from another production.
and causing another havoc.

oo really.
it is bloody freaking brilliant.

here, the knowledge from my IB class comes in handy.
when i combine together all things i have.
i know.
it is like a seed of corn.
it is a blessing on the way.
stuck in traffic jams perhaps.
but i know it'll come

blessing....
this is how i pronounce it:
the family i was born in,
really, i couldnt ask anything better than this.
because if i do, it would to be too much....

and one thing i learn,
any fool can criticise, condemn and complain and most fools do.
---
sometimes, i am a fool perhaps.

game over

2009-09-17T00:03:00.002+08:00

probably you havent seen me blogging for a long time.
basically i kind have lost the appetite to write.
and i believe you lose the appetite to read my blog too...

anyway...
most of you, i believe, had played ding dong before.
yea, i know that video game arena by the name of ding dong

if you ever played those machines before, i bet you know this famous terms;
namely Game Over

lately i notice,
this game over often features in our daily lives.
sometimes, you face it in what you do.
in your job, relationship, project, school, almost everything.

and sometimes, it is just game over for you.
i am kind of person that dislike losing.
of course i dont like those two words too.
when i was a kid, whenever it appeared on my screen,
i would try best to deny that.

usually i tried to whine on my parents.
i did almost everything i could to just continue the game.

and it is exactly what happened in my life recently.
there are times, i believe, where i faced game over
and i tried many ways to just make it work.
i have done almost anything i could.
just to realise...

it is just that game over
that cannot be helped anymore,
regardless the many coins you have.

and i am left with,
if you don't like something, change it. if you can't change it, change your attitude

the will-never-happen trip to genting

2009-08-04T02:30:00.002+08:00

i cleared my weekly schedule as clear as possible.
have done it for even twice.

just to find out that, it will never happen.
the problem is not that the plan results in nothing.
but HOW the plan goes in vain is.
it really annoyed me.

it is as if my schedule is very easy to clear.
and it makes my schedule looks like the least important thing in world.
but again,
HOW it happens that really upsets me.

in a simple sentence, i may say
i am tired, upset, and disappointed.
i really am.

fall in love

2009-07-17T01:48:00.002+08:00

when one falls in love.
is it really a love.

or it is merely a desire to posses.
or in one cruel word we call
possessive

whichever is ours.
we will never know when we just fall.
and i believe,
it's even harder to hold when you are a man.
you of course want it to be quick.

the quicker you posses, the better.

that's why this term is so famous lately
'lebih cepad, lebih bae'

bloody brilliant life. (you're right Blunt)

2009-07-16T02:47:00.003+08:00

i am back here in singapore. :)
healthy. fat. and of course SINGLE.

and....
to be honest. i just wanna be honest.
since it's my blog i think i can.

i am tired.
and a bit regret joining this tlg musical.
ha ha ha.
i wish i cud be longer there.

there is a chance i will say the other thing at the end of the show.
like i did last time joining this kind of thing.

my holiday was so good,
until i woke up and remembered a thing about this musical.

btw i just read the email from my brother to all the blessed members
and i think i am supposed not to write something like 'giving up' words.

but i just want to complaint. just want to moan.
let me do it. i will be better in no time. i suppose.

but
i am a man. at least a boy.
so i am not a quitter.
and i will finish what i started. whatever it takes.

however.
it never changes that
i miss indonesia.
and the people i know.
and some unfinished affairs make it worse.

rahasia besar si abank!

2009-07-11T23:34:00.005+08:00

mungkin sebagean kita uda melihad quick count
yank telah dilakukan beberapa lembaga survey ternama di indonesia,
dan suda menyaksikan betapa jauhnya capres urutan dua
meninggalkan lawan2nya dalam perolehan suara PILPRES 2009.

setau guwe, di braddel 207,
kita bisa menyaksikan dikid2 acara tipi indo.
entahlah kalean bosen ato kaga,
yank pasti acara2 tipi dibanjiri
puluhan kupasan2 oleh para pakar politik
tentak kepiawaian si abang urutan nomer dua...

nahhh....
layaknya orank indo yank gampank ketepa.
dari mudahnya ketepa virus blekberi.
sampe mudah tertepa nya flu babi...

ngomonk2 soal blekberi ye.
bedeh. cadas deee.
keknya, gua liad yank namanya henpon blekberi
lebi banyak dari liad buah blekberi beneran de..
satu kata dah: GILE.

nahhh.. ole karna itu.
gua pengen ikud2an si pakar politik.
gua dengan pengertian yank terbatas ini
berusaha mengupas rahasia besarr
kemenangan abank nomer urut dua di Quick Count.

rahasianya ada di restoran angke di jalan ketapank.
malem ini. ketika kita sedank makan malam bersama paman guwe.
dan seperti biasa. kaum adam dengan ganas dan lincah
mengayunkan sumpit kesana kemari.
menghindari segala rintangan layaknya liu xiang.

namun di tengah roh ketamakan dan kelaparan melanda kami..
tiba2 di sebrang jauh meja sana.
terlihad sepupu guwe yank berinisial H.
berusia lima taun.
dia terlihad kesusahan menghabiskan bakso ikan di hadapannya.
mungkin kalo kita mo liad dari kaca mata die,
mungkin bukan bakso ikan yank disana
tapi seonggok tai hangad mungkin yank terlihad.

disetrum oleh rasa ingin tau
dan rasa isenk yank mendalam...
lalu gua memberanikan diri bertanya pada sang paman...

'paman....
si H suka ga ya tai bakar coklad 'taipita'
yank populer di kalangan muda mudi jaman sma dulu?'

langsunk si paman.
dengan wajah tertegun menatap gua dalam2....
meletakkan sumpid makannya. memegank pundak gua..
wajahnya menjadi biru pucad. layaknya abis makan babi cah baygon

*DORRRR***
boonk guaaaaa.

benernye gue cuman nanya.
'eh paman. si H kalo di ruma suka makan indomie ga ya?'

wah. si paman langsunk mukanya menjadi cerah.
seakan2 abis menank lotere.
dia menjawab cepad
'suka donk!! smua orank jg suka indomie!'

seketika gua pun langsunk ingad.
iklan si abank nomer urud dua
dengan lantunan lagu sbuah merek mie instant terkenal
'***... presidenkuuuu'

langsunk seketika 'momen Aha!!' pun melanda gua.
'ahaa!! ternyata.... ini rahasianya'
no wonderr!! kalo kata orank bule.

yahh.. demikianlah kiranya.
kupasan politik hari ini.
laen kali. mungkin gua akan mencoba mengupas yank laennya.
mungkin soal kematian MJ, hantu MJ, ato apapun yank bisa kita kupas.

saya andreas chandra
dari studio melaporkan..

aku robert yank kemaren....

2009-07-06T23:50:00.007+08:00

cerita ini diangkad dari kisah nyata.
nama pelaku dan korban disamarkan,
demi keamanan mereka masink2....

pelaku: robert (disingkad r setela ini)
korban: ica (disingkad i)

disebua siank bolonk mengsms i.
dan dibawa adala cuplikan sms2 nya:

r:Halo Ica, ini robert yang kemaren.
nanti sore aku tunggu di mesjid al-ikhbal buat magrib-an.
Jangan telat yah ca.

i:saya bukan ica.. sala sambung mas..

r:Ica, kok kamu tadi gak dateng?..

r:Ica, sms aku koq gak dibales yah

i:Weh, gw bukan ica.. Uda gw bilang,lu sala nomor..

r:Ica, telponnya gak diangkat?

i:Saya bukan ica!!!!!!!!

r:Loh. Rabu br kenalan, koq skrg pura2 lupa. Ih, ica sombong...
Boong tuh dosa loh ca....

i:Eh, tuh ica salah kasi nomor. jangan ngaco d.nama gw bukan ica.
dan lu gangguin gw dr kemaren. emangnya gangguin orang ga dosa?

r:Eih, Ica galak euy. Kamu kan panggilannya ica. Nama panjangnya
**** (nama aseli) kan? Betul?

i:Bukan..nama gw emg **** tp gada yg perna manggil gw ica..
tolong d,kyknya lu sala orang..gw ga ktemu org namanya robert hari rabu...

-----
setela gua pikir suda cukup... lalu gua telpon lah orank ituu...
lalu bercakap2lah kita:
r: halooo ***
i: eh.. sapa nih??
r: hoi.. hoiii.. gua andreas chandra neee.. he he....
i: #@%^%^@#... #$@#$@#$...
r: ehhh. ga bole ngomonk gtu kaleee...
i: #$%$ #$#@$@#$ @#%@#%....
kalooo sampe ****, gua ***
r: lohh tapi kan ga ada hubungannya antara dia ama gua....
i: sial lo... kapan lu balik ke indo??
r: erm 1 minggu yg lalu....
eh lewad sehari... eh dua hari... eh tiga hari....
i: aaa... %@#$@#$@# ...
gua ga mau ngomonk ama lu lage. mao tidur gue.
r: loh2. serius yee???
*tuttt*

merasa bersala....
laluuu gua sms ini ke die....

r: Eih ica, lage sakid ga bole galak2. Ga sembu luh nanti ;p bwahaha

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lalu gua pun tidur siank juga karena lelah menyetir.

setela malam menjempud.
gua pun mulae online2 (seperti lagu saykoji)...
lalu ngecek situs2 untuk sosialisasi macem friendster, fesbuk, twiter, dsb...

lalu gua baca update-an status temen gua ini....
tertulis lah ini....
'gua baru aja mengungkap identitas pelaku.
dan gw ga mau ngomonk ama dy sampe kapanpun. supermarah mode:on'

langsunk gua pun tersentak.
diam sejenak.
lalu memori2 masa kecil gua pun terlintas.
ketika gua masi kecil lincah dan belun berbulu ketiak.
makan pun masih malu malu dan belun seganas sekarank.

gambar itu tertoreh jelas di benakku.
di rumah lama kami. di bawah pohon jambu yank rindank.
lalu terdengar suara lembud wanita...
....
.......
...

'andreas mandi!!!'
eh.. ??
'andreas mandi!! uda malemm!!!'
perintah itu seketika mengembalikan gua kembali ke dpan monitor.
ternyata nyokap suru gue mandi....

dan ketika gua tengok monitor.
ternyata hurup itu masi terukir sama percis...

'gua baru aja mengungkap identitas pelaku.
dan gw ga mau ngomonk ama dy sampe kapanpun. supermarah mode:on'

seperti vonis hukum mati sajah tulisan itu...
dan di dalem otak gua berkecamuk ribuan pertanyaan. seperti:
1. gua ngaku sendiri sihh. bukan di tangkap basah.
2. wadu. kapanpun itu maksudnya kapannn??
wahh berad niii kedengerannyee... gua 15 juli uda balik luh caa... ;S
3. kok manohara itu bgitu senank dirinya terlihad menderita.
gua yakin elu juga bisa liad itu, kalo lu liad iklan 'manohara segera di rcti'
4. sby kok diserbu terus yakk...bisa2 menank di putaran pertama lohh dieee....
5. jk kok jago pidato yee.. uda kek di pilem 'man of the year' dah !
6. wee.. yuni sara ama rafi ahmad ui!! berondonk lage nge trend yee??
7. pertanyaan ape lagii yeee yank mesti gua tanyain??

malemnyaa..
gua coba telpon. ga digubris.
besoknya pake telpon ruma.
setela tau itu gua.langsunk dimatiin.
gua coba telpon lagi dua kale. langsunk di reject. buih....
---------

yahh begitulahh...
di sbuah hari yank cerah.
matahari terbid di timur seperti biasanya...
terjadila tragedi yank menumpahkan darah.

akhir kata:
ica... icaaa seekor lebah yank sebatank kara...
dimanapun kamu berada, mama selalu menyertai.....
..................
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..
.
.
.

yah intinya ca..
kalao elu ada membaca blog inih. (yg mana kurank mungkin)
maap yeee.. maap lahir batin.
khilaf gue.. khilaf
gelap mata kalo kata orank2...
semoga amal ibadah gua diterima ye =)

ucapan terima kasih....

2009-06-18T02:33:00.002+08:00

10 juni 2009.

akirnya gua umur 21. senank.
next time bisa masuk casino.
bisa maen2 jadi god of gambler. cihuy. =)

ngomonk2 soal 10 juni.
taon lalu 10 juni itu keknya hari selasa pas FA.
taon ini hari rebo. pas FA juga.
tapi ga ada FA taon ini.
walo notabene FA itu ga bisa diganti aktipitas laen.
he he he ;p

ngomonk2 soal rebo.
gua jadi inged.
waktu itu hari minggu yaa..
laluu gua liad2 warta. liad renungan harian.
intip2 firman 10 juni.
terus bunyinya seru loh:
dia cerita soal mengapa Tuhan itu buad orank yank suda lansia,
semakin lemah dan lemah dan lemah.
alesannya: kata dia supaya semakin tua, biar kita semakin mendekad ke Tuhan.
dan semakin pengen pergi dari tubuh lemah ini ke tempad yank kekal.

beuh, dalem lubuk ati gua yg palink dalam,
si andreas kecil berteriak:
wuih pirman yank cocok buad orank ulank taon ni. ha ha ha....

nah2. ngomonk2 soal lubuk ati.
gua lagi pingin mengucapkan terima kasi
dari lubuk ati yg palink dalem.
buad 237,000 orank yank suda ada di bradel,
buad nemenin gua lewatin jem 12.

juga buad 1,024,568 orank yank uda ke taka,
buad permak gua jadi adam lambert. wohoo!
terima kase yak. =)

ngomonk2.
ada satu hal yank terjadi persis kek taun lalu sih.
gua sedank mandi ketika jem 12 teng. =)
wekekeke.

legenda sayur kol dan gravitasi: esensi dari keidupan

2009-06-13T01:20:00.002+08:00

heee. belakangan ini. singapur panas.
terutama kamar gua.
ada kepanasan yank sangadlah eksotis yank tidak tau darimana datanknya.

gua ada belajar geografi waktu sd dolo.
dolo diajarin kalo iklim itu:
mencakup daerah luas dan mempengaruhi daerah itu dalam waktu lama.
tapi tidak begitu di ruma ini.
kamar si ranu cuman beda berapa langkah dari kamar gua.
dingin. sejuk.

sedang di kamar gua. seakan2 ini ada di gurun. buek
tapi tak mengapa.
ini keknya emank epek global warming.
mungkin lama2 bisa ada meteor mau datank.
terus butuh astronot buad kesana ledakin itu meteor.
terus lagu mulae diputer...
'i cud stay awake to hear you breathinggg......'
lalu brus wilis muncul dengan brewoknya. dst dst.
intinye, kalo kata koko mah panas...

yahh intinye.
di hari2 gua yank suntuk panas dan ga jelas ini.
gua liatin nick orank2 di msn...
terus sampelah ke nick seseorank.
erm. kira kira gini bunyi nya:
'gravity, can we blame it if two people fall in love'
by: sukardi.

kek quote2 yank ada di kartu hallmark bah.
'sukardi' itu benernya nama samaran (walo gua rasa kalian tau sapa dia)
disamarkan demi alasan keamanan, keaslian, dan kemurnian cita rasa buahnya.

walopun gua bukan galileo.
gua akan mencoba menjawabnya.
jawabannya: tidak bisa sukardi.
alesannya:
setau gua yank namanya gravitasi itu adalah nama pelajaran di fisika.
dan gravitasi itu ditemukan oleh si Ah Niu.
si Ah Niu itu punya 3 aturan emas.
sala satunya adala: Faksi = Freaksi

nahhh...
sedank cinta itu ga begitu sukardi.
Faksi tidak sama dengan Freaksi.
lo kasi aksi 10 Newton belun tentu balik sepulu sepulu nya.
bisa dibalikin enol malah.

tapiii..
kalo mao diliad sisi positip nya
dan sisi rohani nya....
untunk cinta itu kek gituu...
karna...
kalo Faksi ke Tuhan=F reaksi dari Tuhan
kyknya bisa berabe dee.
bisa2 ini blog ga selese,
gua uda masuk koran besok.

yah intinya se ga bisa di, menyalahkan si gravitasi.
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hari ini makin di chomp2 barenk2 yank laen...
hasil pembicaraan:
keknya si rancu bakal segera jadian ni.
disusul si koko.
lalu tak lama setela itu si bimbo pasti menyusul.

lalu dari pembicaraan ini.
gua makin ngerti apa kata si john eldredge,
di 'wild at heart'; buku bagus yank lun gua abiskan itu.

si jon perna bilank:
'one day, the Lord will allow you being hurt by your most loved one'
He will means He will. no exception....

dan bukan salah orank itu sepenu nya kadank.
pada dasarnya Tuhan juga yank pengen itu terjadi.
biar kita makin deked ke die.

dan mgkn itu alesannya kenapa kita mengampuni.
seperti gua mengampuni si tukank mixed rice tadi pagi.
ketika dia kasi gua sayur kol seiprid.
padahal sayur kol itu cuman brapa cent sehh.
dasar tukank mixed rice kutu!!
ga beradab. sembelekete. @#%$@#@$#@
hosh hosh hosh....

iye2. jadi intinya harus memaapkan daahh..
kata orank bijak: itu yank jadi esensi keidupan. ;p

in love......

2009-06-09T02:19:00.003+08:00

uahh..
i think love is right round the corner....
not for me.. unfortunately..
or probably fortunately... :)

many are busy building up their portfolios.
for jobs.
for love.
he he he.
haha. ganbatte ne~ for all of you^^

i wont say much for today's blog.
today, i'd like to let you read what i read earlier this week.

and yes, probably you are asking 'does andreas have time to do so?'
in my very tight scheduled life, i still have time for reading.
because reading is important.
by reading, you can learn almost anything.
dolly parton said so.

so without further do,,
here it is:

FALL IN LOVE?? CAN I BLAME MY HORMONES??
BY: Alvernia Eka Poetry...
(the name sounds familiar right?? ;p)

Iseng-iseng baca notes orang yang lagi ngomongin pasangan hidup. Topik yang anak muda banget, pasti rame.. Ngeliat trus liat komen-komen yang bermunculan di foto 2 orang, cewe dan cowo, baru aja diambil 2 hari yang lalu, dan sangat rame dikomentarin.. Wew..

Sebenernya cinta itu apa sih?? What is love??

Kesampingkan dululah arti-arti Alkitabiah..

I know, God is love.. I know, Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails... (1 Corinthians 13:4-8)
Ya.. ya.. ya..

Mari kita coba bahas dari sisi scientificnya..

Menurut artikel yang pernah gw baca, ada hormon-hormon yang bekerja ketika kita jatuh cinta.

1. Dopamine
Hormon ini bikin kita addict.. Dopamine memberikan sensasi yang sama kalo kita pake kokain. Belom pernah jatuh cinta dan mau tau rasanya?? Pake kokain! Tapi saya sama sekali tidak menganjurkannya loh, efek sampingnya macem-macem.. Kalian bisa tau lah dari seminar-seminar NAPZA yang sering diadain di sekolah dan di kampus.
Ketika kita melihat orang yang kita suka, kita seperti mendapatkan suntikan dopamine. As I say before, it's addictive. Everyone who has been in love knows they wanted to see the one they were in love with again and again and again.
Sayangnya, kalo kalian udah berhubungan dengan orang yang sama, sekitar 2 tahun lah.. Tubuh kita tidak memproduksi dopamine sebanyak ketika kita baru-baru aja jatuh cinta. The feeling of being in love slowly changed in loving him or her.

2. Fenylethylamine

Uhhh.. Susah bacanya!!
Fenylethylamine diproduksi oleh otak kita. Ini nih hormon yang bisa kita kambinghitamkan bila kita ngerasa deg-degan, napas jadi ngos-ngosan, mulai berkeringat, gugup, salting, dan ngerasa seneng di saat yang sama karena kira ngeliat orang yang kita suka lewat. Hehehehe..
Sensasi yang sama bisa kita dapetin kalo kita mengkonsumsi keju, coklat, atau red wine dalam jumlah banyak. Hormon ini akan diproduksi oleh jika kita melihat sesuatu (atau seseorang) yang kita suka. Excitement!! Hormon ini menyebabkan kita jadi excited karena kita ngeliat sesuatu yang kita suka, atau sebaliknya.. Ketika kita ketakutan, hormon ini juga diproduksi ama otak..
Gitu kan perasaan kalo tiba-tiba kecengan lo lewat? Antara senang dan takut, trus serba salah lah pokoknya..

3. Adrenaline

Sapa yang gak pernah tau nama hormon ini.. KETERLALUAN!! Balik ke SD sana!! Hahaha..

Hormon ini membuat kita menjadi agresif. Hormon yang membuat kita bisa melakukan apa aja, apalagi di saat kepepet. Hahaha..
Hormon ini diproduksi tubuh kalo kita lagi sangat marah, sangat ketakutan, merasa sangat kepanasan atau kedinginan, atau abis olahraga berat pas fitnes.. Hormon ini nih yang bikin kita suka nepsong kalo lagi berduaan doang ama si doi.. Hati-hati.. Kalo mulai nepsong, minumlah yang manis2.. Loh?? Just kidding.. Hahaha.. Efek dari hormon ini mirip-mirip kayak Fenylethylamine.

4. Endorphin

Endorphine ini semacem morfin yang diproduksi tubuh kita kalo tubuh kita merasa sakit. Yap, it's a painkiller. Morfin kan punya efek yang sama seperti opium dan heroin yang bisa bikin kita ngerasa seneng mulu.
Makan makanan berlemak, coklat, dan makanan manis (ada gulanya) membuat tubuh kita memproduksi lebih banyak Endorphin.. (now I know why chocolate is women's best friend!!)
An orgasm or running more than just around the block or farther has the same effect. *wow..*
Kalo badan kita memproduksi sedikit Endorphin, kita bisa ngerasa depresi loohh.. Hati-hati.

Dua yang terakhir akan dijelaskan dengan bahasa Inggris biar gak terlalu vulgar..

5. Vasopressin

Vasopressin works for men in the same way as oxytocine does for women.
If you want enough of this hormone, you'd better drink no alcohol. Alcohol is a restraining factor for the production of Vasopressin. When a man ejaculates there is a large amount of this hormone made by the hypothalamus and released in the blood stream. Vasopressin is also an antidiuretic hormone. So when you have enough of this hormone, you won’t wet your pants very easy. (If you have them on)

6. Oxytocin

Oxytocin also called the mother hormone or cuddle hormone because when a mom breastfeeds her baby, this hormone is produced in large quantities. When you hug or caress, this hormone is produced too. It makes you feel connected, takes away fear and makes you feel confident. That’s why a lot of people need foreplay before being able to make love all the way.

Naahhhhh... Setelah tau ini, apa pendapat kalian??

Tuhan mank hebat, hormon-hormon ini hanya bekerja bila stimulusnya muncul.. dan tentunya stimulusnya berbeda-beda untuk setiap orang. Hehehehe.. Ketika semua hormon ini bekerja, it's just a "flick".. and you fall in love!!

Makanya gw percaya pas orang bilang,"Fall in love is easy, but staying in the commitment to love is very hard"..

Lalu, kesimpulannya apa??

Fall in love?? Can I my blame my hormones?? Wakakaka..

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okay, well.
hope this will help anyone who is in love. ;p

a story behind a story and a curtain.......

2009-06-08T01:39:00.010+08:00

GAYA 2009, first day...
1 hour before the show.
i started to worry. and then i put on my brother's ipod.
set it at the almost maximum volume.
this habit actually leads me to buy my own ipod later.

i wanted to find peace. so that i can perform better.
i picked up-tempo songs. and most of them are hillsongs'.
a bit religious, i thought, would help.
and in fact they did help.

after turning on the song, i wanted to find a good place to sit.
all places are crowded with people with their own business.
until i found a bed. behind the curtain.
it was dark. no one can see me. and i see almost no one.
'good place' i thought.

but as people always say, all good things are taken.
e.g. nice, decent, pretty lady. and whatever 'good adjective' that is combined with the word 'lady'.

yep. this small nice bed in a dark place with a very good privacy.
is taken.

but, i need a seat. so i politely, as i do all the time, ask her:
'may i sit here?'
and the girl that was there first said 'yes'

i forget how eventually we start chatting.
as i initially just wanted to get that peace from the hillsong song.

anyway, eventually i turned off the ipod.
and talked to her.
all things are brought into the talk.

until she asked,
'hei, so your record is clean. isn't it?'
then i replied,
'as in, never been in relationship?.. yes it is'

and i continued,
'yes, and by the help of few women, i keep my record clean'
and it was said very well,
as if i have broken world record.

and she said,
'ahh.... for me, by breaking some guys' hope, i am still single'

me: ough. okay. why? they are not good enough?

her: erm.. i had a bet with my friend. if i can keep myself being single,
for a year. that friend will treat me.
--> heh.... what an unfair world!
if that friend of her is mine. and the same bet is thrown at me.
i can win this for 20 years.
and i will have a free meal every year, at least once....
okay anyway, lets continue....

me: oo okay. and that one year has passed?
her: nope. but almost. i think i'll win it. *laugh*
me: hooo.... good for you then.

MC started the show.
and. we knew we had to stop.
and of course we did stop.
then, we exchanged some encouraging good words for the show.
then i left for my post. left wing.

GAYA 2009, second day...

first day was good.
but 1 hour before the show.
i felt the same anxiety.
i went straight to the bed.
ready with ipod on my both ears.

thank god. it was empty.
and dark, very dark.

and the same formula worked.
i gained my peace.
this time, i knew i would perform in front of my church friend.
a bit nervous. i wished i could do well.

30 mins before the show...
a guy came and sat with me.
then, i put off the ipod.
and had a chat.
until the girl from the first day came...
and joined us.

and....
suddenly nobody talked.
weird.
that girl broke the crowd.
and brought up the silence....
she looked gloomy.

to break that weird silence,
i said,
'my friends come to watch me...'
her: ooo, nice!!
me: erm yeah,..
another weird silence came.
me: and well, are you alright? you dont look like it.
her: ermph... my family come to watch me.
me: ooo good! i wish mine will come too.
--> my brother came though, i think to check out his ipod.
he would be happy to know that his ipod havent become two different pieces ;p

her: okay. i am worried. afraid.
me: haha. you will be fine.. *as i will* ;p
her: okay...

then after that. i shoke her hand.
giving my best motivating words.
i know i am bad at it though. ;s
and then i left for my post. left wing.

.....
erm back then when we were still practising.
there was one day, where i was off.
and i just couldnt act.
tired. bored.

she taught me.
a stupid thing.
she said:
'when you are off, do this..'
then she slapped herself, as hard as my mum slap. ;p
everyone was shocked by this stupid extreme slap.
then she offered:
'do you want me to help you?'
i replied:
'ha ha... no. thanks... just keep it for yourself'
............

and back to that second day.
few seconds before i went out to stage.
i was very excited, nervous altogether.
to perform in front of my church friend is just exciting. ^^

and just pray and pray.
then she walked thru the place i sat.
and raised her hand up.
went to my cheek.

and in that very second.
i think:
'urgh, the slap. it is coming. '
and.. *pokkk*

eiggh... the gentle one.
ermphh weird. until now, i dont know what she was really doing.
my assumption:
1. she was afraid, a real slap will ignite the make-up artist anger.
as the slap will ruin my very thick-make-up.

2. she came to the wrong person.

but....
it somehow worked.
the scene 3 i performed that night was simply awesome.
the best scene 3 performed ever as i ever mentioned.

and for the proof, jenita had laughed even before i said my first line.
for whatever reason she laughed. i dun care. ;p
(i know the reason though) ;p

i just joked whatever i wanted to joke.
it was simply great.

a 2 hour friendship with a weird girl.
four months has gone.
and still a good memory to have.
some say that it will be better that GAYA 2009 did not take place.

i dun dare to say so.
too many things i will miss out if it really happens that way.

i wish i could get at least the same thing.
in NASI BUNGKUS.
so that i can write another freaking long essay.
eh. long blog i mean. ;p

jobless?!

2009-05-29T02:47:00.002+08:00

ah well. i prefer to call it jobfree!! =)
in this troubled crisis time, to be jobfree is not a hard thing to achieve.
have been jobfree for almost a month.
have been calm, a bit anxious, anxious, and back to the state of calm again

in this weird period. have been waking up constantly after am changes to pm
and.. yeah!! britains got talent is quite interesting this year.
the appearance of shaun smith with his 'aint no sunshine' led me to check out other version of this song.

to the version of kris allen (i am sure you know him).
== he is the husband of adam lambert == ;p
yeah anyway, his is one of the better version.
and hard to believe, i have come to the conclusion that
kris in fact is a better artist compared to dhanny gokey

and... i also listened to taylor hicks version of this song. (love it too)
actually i think gokey is similar to hicks.
somehow they are alike. but i know you will disagree.
but i dun care. i still think they are alike. and you cant say anything!!
wakakaka. this is my blog. ;p

and i also listened to many other versions.
of course i also listened to the original one (at least i think it is) ;p
the version of billy withers.

lastly, this stupid activity led me to wondering what is the meaning of 'soul music'
and at around 2:40 am
i went to our best friend google
and typed out 'soul music'
and here it is
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Soul_music

btw, i have finished my grand theft auto game this afternoon.
tmr another adventure is waiting for me.
you will hear very soon another story from me.
i think it will be about a dragon that i'll kill. ;p

yeaa. when you are jobless.. eih, jobfree i mean.
you can do whatever you want. killing a dragon. saving a princess.
kissing jeon ji hyeon, getting straight A,
or wetting your pillow with the living-saliva. ;p

fabia cerra; a woman i love.

2009-05-16T23:46:00.003+08:00

when talent matters so much.
when achievements are valued heavily.
when you can judge one as bad and as good as quick as i snap my fingers.

sometime, we have to jump back from our lofty position to the low dusty earth.
where 'insignificant creatures' (terms quoted from AGE) live and dance.
where actually we can have a better idea, see better talent.
or even a better person than us.
writing off them is an absolute mistake.
we will be able to understand how cocky we are,
by counting how many persons we have written off.

fabia cerra.
our very own hawker center auntie.
not your 'ordinary susan boyle' or 'the down-to-earth paul potts'
she is really your 'own auntie' that you can see at 7eleven, circle k, lawson.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nIaESNgrg4E

when i saw the video.
i couldnt count how many times i almost closed my eyes.
i was really afraid the judges wud press the 'teeet' button.
i had written off her chance even from the beginning of her show.
and without realising it,
it is what we have been doing for all this time.
if you think you do not,
it means you do!! kakakaka :P
and if you think you do,
than it means.... you do too... kakaka ;p

probably, from now on we may want to look at people below us.
who can also inspire us in their own ways.
in their own ways.....

gossip... pssst... it kills.... heh, does it??

2009-03-30T01:43:00.003+08:00

i am not going against anybody...
i just want to share some thought. some naughty thought i may call it.

i bet you all know what the subject means. or at least most of you.
it kills, they said. but does it really kill?
or it is kind of two edged sword. which can kill with one side,
and save others with the other side.

the case i found today really made me even more confused about this whole idea.
to make us look this problem with the same perspective, i'll tell you an example:
let say, there is one of your good friends come to you and say.

'hey dude,do you know Bob? he is taking drugs now, apparently i am the only one that knows about this.. but you know what? i cant really tell him to stop..'

and, what happens if you dont tell somebody to do something about it?
well, if you do tell others, you will committ gossipping. and it's a crime i suppose.

or even listening to your friend story actually already make you do part of gossiping
so probably you may want to do the 'psst motion' at that time.
funnily it will make things even worse. because you would never know the problem in the first place.

and it may be a bit too late, when you see this Bob making his special appearance in papers tmr morning.

now, i heard something surprising this noon.
i forgot to apply the 'psst motion' because i was too excited enjoying my chicken rice, and a bit too surprised with the news which tempted me to listen more.

after listening to it. i dont know what to do.
i cant really go there and talk to the object because i never heard from itself.
i also cant really go to someone else to share this problem.

i still wish the problem is not that serious.
and wish it could do self-recovery,
and if it couldnt, hopefully nothing bad happens until the time it is revealed.

a note. only a note.

2009-03-17T19:49:00.004+08:00

a note in the middle of the whole craziness in my school life.
it really completes the taste i am having. =)

i think that is why meat,as the nicest creation a in burger, is put in the middle
and that is why i think burger has to be eaten as it is,
and not being ripped off like what my housemate likes to do. lol

this is only march.
only 3 months has passed....
i have been in a state of almost-swearing many many times.
want to complain, curse whatever complainable and curseable

but everytime, i feel like that...
there are things preventing me to do so.
a love and a knowledge.
love: i know that at things i want to swear at, i found love
knowledge: i know that, after the downward motion of this roller coaster,
we will go up again.

never in love with SMU in the past. and now, i am not too.
but, i know that it slowly grows.
i dont want smu ends up like smak5 which becomes sth i dont really love.
i like smpk4. but it is not the case for smak5.

i had wasted almost 2 years of my smu life without doing anything useful in smu.
but, in these three months. i found what i never imagined i would find.
things that will make me smile for a very very long time.

and i know to whom i have to be thankful.
to the one that allows me to have a bright start in this year.
world may be facing the craziness of economic downturn,
but i know, he will take care of me very very well.
and...

i wish in the remaining seconds of my life as an smu student,
i could testify about his love.

2009-03-08T01:11:00.002+08:00

rasanya gua ga paham itu kerjanya gimana.
gua emank lon perna bisa paham.

tapi.
untunglah gua ga paham.

yang gua paham.
gua bakal inget terus rasa manisnya.
...

kisah kasih di skolah....

2009-03-04T00:45:00.002+08:00

Kisah Kasih di Sekolah - Chrisye

erm, gua si ga perna tau kisa kasi di skola kek apa.
tapi keknya bagi yank tau,
lagu ini bakal bring back sweet memory kale ya.

gua personally suka bagian yank bunyinya:
malu aku malu pada semud meraaa. hauhauha ;p

2009-03-01T03:23:00.003+08:00

huahua. i dun know what happen to me.
i just feel very happy,
i know the projects are waiting out there to shatter all the happiness

those projects will bring me back down to earth. ^^
but anyway. i just want to savour the sweetness as much as i can.
the actors and actress from the 'waiting room' scene have made my day.

trainings with them, honestly i hated it.
i always wanted to skip it.

but, as the GAYA days approaching, i started to enjoy practising with them
and right now, i miss it already.
tonight 'scene 1-3', we normally call it that way, was tremendous in our point of view
we never felt as ecstatic as that before.
that was the best scene 1-3 played.
we just felt very high....
it was arguably my best 3 mins in my life.
surely there will be more valuable 3 mins in my life though, such as my wedding proposal to my prospective wife.

anyway, i will never forget this sweet 3 mins.
i want to feel it again.
i thank God for Him to be there.
be the fifth person on stage and give me that peace.
and thank God
for vava, thomas, and seria.
2 christians, and 2 budhists. hopefully the latter can convert soon. ^^

and thank God,
that He allowed me to bond friendships with people i will never get to know,
if i am not involved.

and lastly.
thank God,
for every single weird feeling i have during this GAYA.
i appreciate all of that. ^^
i enjoy it.
it is simply sweet.

last but not least,
i like the time when we were about to perform.
i will call it as the last minute encouraging session.
i like it.
it is again sweet
i experienced many things which really sweet. especially encouragement from some people. =) which probably you will never know the name.
their encouragements are just simply unique and memorable.

i know that i have to move on.
back to the normal me.
the sweetness is past already
i just believe that other sweetness is waiting in the future.
and i will start to move on by stopping typing.

because believe me,
i can stay the whole nite just to type and type and type.
i simply cant contain the burst inside me. =)

and of course.
my beloved church friends.
haha. you just simply wrapped up the nite.
took photo with me just like i was a main actor. ^^
it's fun really.

be a man, do what is right!

2009-02-25T01:38:00.003+08:00

i never thought that it could make me clicking the home button for 5 times.

as the GAYA thing comes closer,
the training becomes more and more intensive.

i hope i can go to that day quicker,
finish it. chop chop. ^^

but by then, probably i will be missing all those smiles.
i know that is probably the right thing to happen.
it is healthier for my health too. =)

like russell peters once joked:
'be a man! do what is right!!' =)

2009-02-22T23:46:00.002+08:00

i can see it is coming....

but i know it will pass thru.
and it will only pass thru.

when this craziness goes away,
i know it will not last here.

although i know it will happen in that way,
i am really... kind of afraid.

because i know that:
i know little.
and this kind of thing is one of the things which i dun really know.

love save the empty??!!$%^$??

2009-02-20T19:00:00.002+08:00

huahua. gua cuman bingunk ama lagunya ci rani.
maksudnya apa yaa?? kakakakaka.....
at the first glance, gua ga ngerti
second glance, sama ajee. ^^

ermm.. yg kepikir ama gua.
love save the empty stomach.
in that sense, bener sih.
kalo ada yang love ama kaum papa, maka selamad lah mereka dari kelaparan.

2009-02-19T02:12:00.006+08:00

mandi aer panas seperti biasa,
seperti kalian tau, gua senank disiramin aer panas lama2.
mungkin this has sth to do with the fact kalo gua adalah hot guy. ^^ setuju??
Amen!!!!!

gua pikir abis sirem2 aer panas bisa seger dikid.
tapi siapa sangka, ternyata ga ada faedahnya.
badan tetep lemes, mata makin sayu sajah.
suda berusaha meningkatkan nafsu.
memaksakan lelucon (seperti yang bayu dan ci bombie nyanyikan)
*i started a joke lala la la*
tapi ga nolonk.
makin cape malah.

padahal uda ga exam.
tapi napsu buad yank laen2 juga udah abis. haha.
erm, ini jgn2 syndrome psychology yank post-exam period ituh.

yauda de. mo bobo aja kali sekarank. =)
btw, hepi betdey buad cewe yank berbaju puti celana mera (kek anak sd gtuh)
smoga wish dari smua orank buad dia come true =)

karena suara gua lon terlalu bagus.
ini gua pinjem suara si jamrud dolo. met mendengarkan.
ehh...
tapi dia ga perna baca blog gua sih. ;s
tapii lagi, kalo kata ci rani..
ya uda siii, kenapa?? (ga nyambunk ya? gpp. emank mau ngopi ci rani aja) ^^

eniwe. hepi betdei sekali lagi =)

Selamat ulang tahun - Jamrud

valentine chocs

2009-02-15T02:14:00.001+08:00

haha...
at last i got my first choc.
thanks to devi. kakaka.

ga tao ada angin apa yak...
emank kiamad uda dekad sih.. ;p

and drought of choc suda melanda bertaon2.
somehow magically by the power and grace from the lord,
i make it thru every year. kakakakaka ;p

so,
blessed women, show your love!!
chocolate will do!! really. ;p

but really
chocolate actually isn't everything.
and GAYA 2009 ticket is. haha ^^

ooo jade seah...

2009-02-14T13:58:00.002+08:00

jade seah was once an smu undergraduate...
huahuaha...

what a good news.
the more startling news is that she graduated with cum laude.
a babe like her..
the very same woman who on tv said fu*k (censored for the sake of some minority) ;p
unbelieveable. ;p

although she is not the prettiest woman on earth,
i have probably met many and many prospective jade seah. ;p

oo jade seah!!

another impossible mission...

2009-02-12T00:52:00.002+08:00

yeaaa.. at least it looks so.
i mean the mission.
the mission looks so.

yup2. another exam.
100 pages to go. and it is on friday.
i need miracle and everything like that.
i wrote a lot of things sound like that before.

you probably are getting tired to see me saying that i need miracle.
haha. but funnily i dont. =)
i like to see how i get thru from one difficulty to the other.
and i just want to believe that
those miracles that were turned into my strength that help me thru.

and i believe that
those prayers in the morning told Him,
and He simply does not neglect it.
yes. as simple as that.

and i know.
nothing as sweet as,
a post in the middle of studying.
and a nite hot bath after that....

GAYA 2009-- a breeding season.... for them

2009-02-09T02:46:00.002+08:00

i have been writing that GAYA 2009 so many times..
and usually as the subject for my sponsorship proposal email to some company.

a bit tired and bored to even think about it.
or the exact words are 'fed up' about it.
it just helps me killing my time a bit too much.
and as we know, the killed time never flies back; a fact that makes me more headache to think about GAYA.

and, i just saw a promotion email about it.
a tix costs 18 bucks.
saw val's pic and illenes'
but, where is mine? :S

anyway,
this event is actually called 'musim kawin' by us
many couple got together after this event.
probably, it is because this event forced those couples to spend time together a bit too much.
or givin a pressure to somebody a bit too much.
which consequently, force them to cry on others' shoulder too much.
and lead them to think that those shoulders are the shoulders for them.

but, i have gone thru the first two.
and i have escaped without any girl successfully.
and i know that i am quite good at keeping this kind of record.
so i can see myself pass thru this 'breeding season' single-ly ;p

yay next garuda home...

2009-01-22T19:33:00.002+08:00

gua pulank dolo yak.
hunting the red pockets.
and of course some weight will be gained.

bye bye amazingly blessed.
sampe ketemu nanti2.^^

keep amazingly blessing si Babe.

2009-01-19T23:14:00.002+08:00

ayammm on tonite...
and my lip don't lie. ;p

haha. gua lagi hobi denger lagu ini nih.
gara2 nntn, dun forget the lyrics babes version.
haha.
lagunya nyantol sekali di jidad dan lidah.
kaka. ^^

walo dance nya si shakira aga2 hot. kakaka.
tapi intinya lagu ini enak di denger. ^^

ini link youtube.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GWixg8PoKPE

gua ga attach video lagi sebab ada keluhan dari
sala satu pembaca kalo di tempad gua utube ga bisa langsunk ditonton.
yank mana gua jg ga tau kenapa. huhuhu...

ini jg ada link imeemnya btw...

Hips Dont Lie - Shakira

gua harap imeem could work here. =)

'Senorita, feel the conga, let me see you move like you come from Colombia'
hey!! =p

windy singapore....

2009-01-18T00:11:00.003+08:00

windy is a cute girl i found in my school today.
she is in her very very early of 20's
has a fair skin

a typical chinese girl you can find in mrt.
not as hot as hot chick obviously.
and, unfortunately not indonesian.
not chinese as in china citizen.
a singaporean.

obviously live in Singapore.
not sporty.
nor nerd. huahua. =)
a typical next-door girl, my brother will say.
(is it a correct term?) kakakaka

yeeeeey.
you've been wasting time reading the crap i make. =)
i know noone named as windy. never meet such girl.

anyway,
i just want to say that. i just realised this afternoon,
while i was waiting for a call from a friend.
i was waiting near the mr bean stall in my school
there was an empty seat there. and
basically and of course i sat.

and while i was playing my favorite killing-tine game namely solitare,
i felt a big blow of wind came to really cool down my body after another gym session

while receiving that wind-theraphy,
i have been thinking that global warmin has taken out all the wind in orchard.
but i stopped think that way after that wind-struck. ;p

at least,(if i can quote mrs collins, or mrs smith, or mrs tomb raider, or mrs pitt)now, i have hope for that wind to come again. =)

nostalgila...

2009-01-07T01:07:00.003+08:00

in 2008, something changed.
and i thought, it would be back to normal in no time.

but apparently it does not return to normal.
however, can't say too much...
sometime this kind of thing can only be kept alone.
if shared, the sweetness will be gone. :P

just like a lollypop,
have you tried to share a lollypop with your friends?
once others lick the lollypop, do you still want to savour that already-licked-by-others' lollypop?? ;p

yea... yea...
i know you can share with some special friends.
but i don't have that kind of special character at the moment.
so i prefer to enjoy it myself. =)

anyway, enuf crapping.
saatnya nostalgila =)

Madu Dan Racun - Gombloh and Arie Wibowo

Astaga - Ruth Sahanaya

JUN FANG GANG FOO - Astaga
gua suka nih yank ini... =)

Begadang - Rhoma Irama
ini buad orank2 di changi ama rumah jenita tgl 31 dec ama 24 dec.... =)

Si Doel Anak Sekolahan - Rano Karno
huaha, yank ini merindink gua waktu denger. kakaka.
langsunk ada serbuan nostalgila jaman sd dolo. =P

Jarum coklat - Padi
huh, adanya yank versi padi.. :S
gua suka yank versi nugie =)

Kebyar-Kebyar - Gombloh
ini buad bradels yank nyanyi2 waktu independence day...
idup indonesia!!! =)

weird

2009-01-02T02:42:00.004+08:00

weird christmas and new year.

the only year in which i only got one greeting for each big day,
since i got my first cell phone.

business had never been that bad before. :S
it may be due to the financial crisis. ;p
but it is good though.
i could be a bit relax and focus on what we were doing for the entire nite.

two big days.
six same names.
fun, tiring.
just the same old sleep-less nite;the producer of acne. kakaka.

thank God that i was free from 'freakin-busy-texting-syndrome-on-big-days'eve'
seriously. no complaint. i just feel a bit strange. kakaka. ;p

where is the love?

2009-01-01T14:50:00.003+08:00

i wanted to post this blog one month ago.
but was a bit busy and lazy.
dun have time to jot sth here. haha.

just got time today. =) so be it, the first scratch of the year.

***yayy!! plok plok plok...
pep peeeeep.... cuit cuit. oleeee.oleee !!!.****

woww..
readers!! you are as enthu as usual.=)
long time no see. =)

first thing first....
where is the lovee???
the love at the dobi got there has been missing.
it is not only fish n co that are looking for that weird love.
black eyed peas also is. =)

and,
talking about love.
i want to talk about my first idol. kakaka. =)
joanna alexandra. =)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fg_URmB7UCc&feature=related

haha. she was cute.
and every day, after school,
i would watch 'mtv ampuh' to see the mv,
and this mv was in the pole position for 20 over weeks.

until, i heard from my friend that she was a bitch.
had pregnant and aborted her own baby twice.

but as usual.
i would not believe that cheap dirty gossip.

then, after a while, she suddenly made a surprising appearance in one adult magazine.
this one was not a gossip. because she didn't deny it.

but, as usual,
i still had my own kind of opinion.
i believed that she had some reasons for her appearance.

but,
recently i just found out that, she is just another jamie lynn spears.
and actually. she is a married woman now. huahaua. =)
http://aycu16.webshots.com/image/20655/2004498169679431791_rs.jpg

and it is believed that it was another marriage by accident.

and yesterday. i saw another cute actress.
and a guy, i think from malay, made a video for her.
and also a poem. ;p
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dFlp4o_sEeo
hope you enjoy it. =)
btw this nadia saphira is the one from the 'jomblo' movie.

and. i wish she would not follow the 'spears family' footsteps.
but even if she does follow, it is also not my business. correct readers?? ^^
...

i dun really know how to end this post.
may be....

happy new year 2009 =)

matthew 19:26

2008-12-10T10:50:00.002+08:00

with God all things are possible.
kemaren sore lewatin tangs, terus baca tulisan itu

terus gua pikir. sekarank keknya ga ada sesuatu yank impossible yank sedank gua hadapi. tapi dalam semalam. Tuhan buktiin.

kalo He is really able to do all kind of sign and wonder.

harimo mati....

2008-12-07T02:36:00.002+08:00

wek. pagi uda menjelank...
4 jam lagi keknya mesti bangun lagi buad pegi gereja.

abis bersi2 kamar sambil nonton bola.
terus nonton si garincha nya arsenal --> mr eboue.
kasian de dia. semua tim arsenal tuh nervous di menid2 terakhir pertandingan.
banyak buad sala. tapi dia sala satu yank di boo palink kencenk.

menurud gua bodo de itu fans.
uda tau tim maen jelek. bukan di dukunk. mala di boo.
emank jaman sekarank beda sih.
kalo kata devi sih, ini namanya 'psychological method'
huh. ampe bikin session bersi2 gua terhenti.
buad kasi simpati bentar. lalu mengheningkan cipta selama dua menid.
keliwatan emank.

emank sedi seh kalo kehilangan support.
tapi go on eboue!!! =)
yuan da ying aja bisa, apa lagi elo!!

support-less may be tough, but as long as not lifeless,
keep striving oy!! =)

naaa. kembali lagi ke bersi2.
iyeh. karena uda mau pulank indo.
akhirnya gua bersi2 meja disampink ranjank gua.
uda ampir setaon dia lon dibersiin.
akhirnya gua bersiin de tadih.

gile. hebad de.
kalo setaon ga dibersiin.
behhh, daki naga aja bisa lo temuin disana.

yah tapi at the end of the day.
emank kebaikan yank menank sih.
huhauahuahuahauahuahuahuahauhauaha (ketawa ala 'yuan da ying')

yah pada akhirnya sih.
harimo mati meninggalkan belank,
manusia mati meninggalkan nama,
anak kost pulank meninggalkan debu-less room.
yipee!!

appreciating what i can....

2008-11-24T03:41:00.004+08:00

they sometimes judge people.
show some disrespectful manner.
without even trying to see the other side of the coin.
it can probably be darker or even lighter.
but they just dun care.

i was part of 'them' basically.
and in fact i am still.

but now, at least
i try to understand that darker side of the coin.
and appreciate and be grateful for everything.
for people i know especially,
dun wait for tomorrow,
because tomorrow,
it may be...
it may be not happening.

dun regret for what you could not do.
just do whatever you can do now.
so that next time,
you dun need to sit down to again do this stupid 'not regreting' activity

because probably the best fella you are looking for,
is sitting next door to your own cage.

one good quote from apple's founder
'live as if today is your last day'

when today is your last day.
you can appreciate things more, i believe.
you even can appreciate not being bitten by mosquito in singapore.
or at least being bitten less.

2008-11-20T00:33:00.002+08:00

like a body without a mind.
still can walk.
but lacking something.

i know that to the one who reign, i must run.
just let his powerful hands come to my rescue.
and i may say.
time and time again he will deliver.
and only him who can

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2008-11-18T19:08:00.003+08:00

selasa sore. waktu orank mule blajar.
gua masi ngaso2...

dengerin suara nikita. sambil baca kumpulan puisi2 cinta.
aduh mantaf juga bahasa mereka.
mereka kaya sekali vocabulary nya.
ada yank mesum, ada yank semi-mesum,
ada juga yank non-mesum (nona mesum --> elisa, ama ci rani donk y??)

...........
membunu waktu memank asik.
maen bang!, maen citadel, maen kartu.
maen ps, makan buffet, ato ngaso2 ga jelas kek gini.

benernya sih kita ga perna bunu waktu menurud gua.
ada juga waktu bunuh kita. pelan2 umur lo dikurangin.
sedetik sedetik.
tanpa terasa, sekarank ada yank uda bekurank 18,21,22,27,26,25,23 taon.

tapi siape peduli.
life goes on and on man.
menuju that 'one nice hole' 2x3 meter, ato ada juga yg 1x2 meter.
one nice hole yank mgkn harganya lebi mahal dari sepetak tanah di CBD ;p

sore ini, lagi nulis2 blog bodo ini.
ada apek2 yank keknya suda tua.
liam keng like this
'can you buy my tissue. i cannot go work because my hand is like this. one package, 4 tissue are for one dollar. can you help this handicap'
koko masuk ambil satu dolar.
'oo thanks. you want the tissue or not? if not i can sell to the other else, God bless you'

wah emank jaman sekarank all about packaging yah.
coba yank datenk cowo sehad2 kek cristiano ronaldo, mgkn koko ga kasi kali ya.
kalo sehadnya kek yank laen seh mgkn bisa. (iya ga cici rani?) ;p

heh? kesimpulan blog ini?
ga jelas sih.
namana jg youth. kalo jelas bukan youth namanya.

btw attached, lagu buad ci bombiena. =)
Betapa kita tidak bersyukur - Kharitas singers, Petra kreativ

perihal berak....

2008-11-11T03:33:00.002+08:00

kaya waktu berak,
selalu berasa waktu itu kurank...
tapi kalo dipaksa biar lebi lama,
kaki jadi kesemutan.

bgitu de kita waktu ngobrol.
rasanya waktu kurank.
tapi kalo sengaja dipanjangin.
bakal jadi ga jelas...

idup dan berak itu emank mirip. =)

my miss teen usa =)

2008-10-30T00:16:00.003+08:00

i think dia ga menank de. tapi cute dah. huahua =P

dan yank ini. lucu juga =)

how many sides does triangle have?
there is no side, one??
^^

some videos to share =)

2008-10-24T00:20:00.003+08:00

sidney n umbrella

'gadis lucu'

Jesus is the friend of mine,
Jesus is my friend.
yihaaaaa!!!!

dia

2008-10-23T22:46:00.004+08:00

dia tersenyum waktu gua sehat.
dia sedi, waktu gua sakid.

dia tersanjung, ketika gua buadkan puisi rombeng,
dia terisak, ketika gua nyanyi lagu cinta, sekalipun sumbank.

dia yank berlari buad gua.
panas, cape...
tapi dia terus lari

dia yank berenank buad gua.
cape, basah,
bukan keringin diri,
dia langsunk check keadaan gua.

dia yank bersepeda buad gua.
gua yank abis digrogoti dosa,
cuman bisa duduk aja.
cuman bisa tidur aja.

tiba di garis finish,
gua menank.
gua senank.

dan gua lupa, kalo
dia yank lari buad gua
dia yank berenank buad gua
dia yank bersepeda buad gua.

dia sedi.
tapi.

dia tetep lari buad gua.
dia tetep berenank buad gua.
dia tetep bersepeda buad gua....

..
....
........

human beings are disappointing.
but you are not.

Redeemer

Who taught the sun where to stand in the morning?
and Who told the ocean you can only come this far?
and Who showed the moon where to hide 'til evening?
Whose words alone can catch a falling star?

Well I know my Redeemer lives
I know my Redeemer lives:
All of creation testifies
This life within me cry
I know my Redeemer lives, yeah.

The very same God that spins things in orbit
runs to the weary, the worn and the weak
And the same gentle hands that hold me when I'm broken
They conquered death to bring me victory

Now I know my Redeemer lives
I know my Redeemer lives
Let all creation testify
Let this life within we cry
I know my Redeemer, He lives
To take away my shame
And He lives forever, I'll proclaim

That the payment for my sin
Was the precious life He gave
But now He's alive and
There's an empty grave.

And I know my Redeemer lives
I know my Redeemer lives
Let all creation testify
Let this life within me cry
I know my Redeemer,

I know my Redeemer
I know my Redeemer lives
I know my Redeemer lives
I know that I know that I know that I know that I know my redeemer lives
Because He lives I can face tomorrow
I Know I know
He lives He lives yeah, yeah I spoke with him this morning
He lives He lives, the tomb is empty,
He lives I gotta tell everybody

2008-10-12T00:49:00.002+08:00

red wine
white wine

it flows..
and leaves
my head warm.

like germ,
it does lil harm..

2008-10-07T23:16:00.002+08:00

a movie says
'the best is usually missed'
and the movie goes on giving an example
'just like the first love'

heard it, and i believed.
....

but,
now.
i know it's wrong.
why?
coz the best simply is yet to come.
n i'm waiting the best to come.
while watching around...
the heart just keeps pomping here n there.
try to figure what is my best....

good man waits good chance.
smart man creates his own chance.

wise man waits God's chance...
if, it never comes.
doesnt matter.
sadrakh said so
so did mesakh, abednego.

post mid term test

2008-10-06T04:20:00.002+08:00

hueehh..
kalo gua ada mid term test,
nampaknya kalian bisa expect gua post sth smells like inspirational video

like britains got talent,
or the latest one, american got talent
huihh...
gua mendapadkan tambatan hati baru...
walo dia masi lon bisa menggantikan si connie,
tapi she's cute uii!! =)

are you from new york??
i am from america !! =P

yank ini juga cakep nihh, huahuahua...

erm, ini pun keren...

erm, gua juga suka yank ini...(juara dua nih yank ini)
tapi pada lebi suka dia daripada champion nya.. huehue

replay trussss

2008-10-01T02:05:00.000+08:00

Fly Me To The Moon (In Other Words) - Frank Sinatra

gua pasank lagu ini purely, buad bisa di replay trus =)