in my limited time, and limited vocabulary

sometimes, we dont treasure our treasures.

and looking out there to care for others' treasures.

and just to come back home and realize treasures mostly are gone.

so, trust me.

starting from now on, i am treasuring you.

my treasures.

do we say things that people would love to hear.

or do we say what we think.

more often than not, we do the first one.

i guess,

being free to say what we think would be great. :)

my schedule is messed up!

my lovely last semester is going to be another fantastic roller coaster ride!

i am really sorry to everyone that is also affected.

buffet is cancelled.

and many things more are cancelled.

unless the activity is on weekend.

so the good news,

night cycling is still on!

pray hard that this body does not sore that much.

just a few weeks away from that massage.

hooo....

oz, oh oz!

is it brain that we need at the moment?,

or is it heart?

do we need courage the most instead?

or....

maybe..

we just need to go home.

go back home.

where we can think.

love.

and be fearless.

at home.

sincerely,

wandering soul

closing to the last 7 weeks of my school's life.

but,

i am not as reflective about it as much as i thought i should be.

i have the mixed feeling though.

will miss brasbasah and everything about it.

dont know what to do.

i decide to study. weird.

musical part 2

i understand why people love twisted stories in movies.

just simply because how easy people's lives are twisted.

how they move from one side to the other.

people love to say "it has been a roller coaster ride for me"

come on dude, most of the time we face more than a roller coaster.

we are let to fall from thousands of feet, from a plane, without parachute.

but one thing that , we, christians, know that is God cares.

now, back to musical.

in celebrating 2 weeks after a fruitful prayer meeting.

I would love to talk a bit abt what happened 2 weeks ago.

to begin with, i am not a person that fancies altar call that much.

i am often missed by the preachers in variety of occasions.

in youth service, normal service, retreat, you name it.

i dont know why, it just happens often. weird i know.

i never complaint though.

as i know if God wants to do something with me.

He can do it without that particular preacher.

i've grown used to it.

so, i had similar expectation for this prayer meeting.

for me this kind of prayer meeting is not different to normal service.

apparently it is different.

i dont know about the other prayer meetings. but this one is certainly different.

three of my good friends prayed for me.

i believe, God knows what i needed.

apparently i needed the most to pray.

and, secondly, simple prayers from my friends.

not that big prayer from big God's servants.

they were just simple prayers by simple servants of a big God.

How much i appreciate my Dewi Kwan-Im.

that much i appreciate you, friends!

Andri Kecap

he has been a great friend. i always believe he is a very capable person.

happy for him that he seized all the opportunity to stretch himself to serve God even more this time round.

and i still believe that we havent seen the best out of him yet.

he is a great guy, with a great character. thanks for the prayer mate!

looking forward to working with you again!

Si Artis (lorena)

ah! when i thought prayer meeting had finished, she came to me.

asked whether she could pray for me. and of course, why not? a prayer from a popular singer :P

She has been a great friend too. i have not really talked about serious stuff with her.

we were similar to certain extent. tend to arrive late. happy go lucky. loves to eat. second kid in the family. born in the middle of the year.

it is just that she is more in all the adjectives (lateness is worse than me, more carefree, older etc) ;p

enjoying our friendship well. hope you do enjoy too, tis! :)

i intended to pray for andri and manda back, but there was not enough time.

too bad. ;D

Jenita

the last prayer with her was awesome too. we are together the remnant of old Blessed.

praying with her was as if i was praying with my own family.

i did not know how much strength was poured during that prayer.

will not write much about her. she is just an amazing friend!

you have embarked on some more challenging journey (you know what)

i know that you'll be doing okay! :)

i also wanted to pray with FA blessed as one family.

too bad it could not happen. but happy to do great thing tgt with them. :)

and one precious thing i learned.

i learned how to surrender better.

terima kasih Tuhan.

just another nonsense

saw one of my good friends' tweet earlier.

it went sth like: "the fact that a guy serves in a church, does not guarantee much"

like some of you know, i like to comment here and there,

talk crap. get serious on almost nothing. (although sometimes can get upset too) :p

so feel free if u want to comment. especially, err the statement's owner. ;D

first of all, i'd like to let u know that i dont know whether the statement is right or wrong.

if you love to have some conclusion on it, i dont have.

so, you might want to stop here. :)

since you continue to read onto this line, let's start discussing! :)

first of all, actually i have about the same idea as you, my friend.

however, i'd love to show a a little different argument to this.

for me, generally, the fact that a guy serving in a church guarantees something better.

not that i am defending my fellow male friends.

it is as simple as:

"does the fact that a doctor working in a Mt. Elizabeth guarantee much?"

the answer, i guess, it depends.

if the doctor is compared to doctors in the SE Asia area, generally it does, doesnt it?

like one has tweeted back, how much is much?

i am also not sure about how much,

but generally, i guess it guarantees better than if a guy is not ministering.

having said that,

generally only means generally.

majority will be like that. but outliers must be present.

yet, i believe using one criterion to assess a man is never enough.

we know BMW is a good brand for car.

generally, a BMW is more luxurious than a Honda.

but being a BMW does not always mean it is a fantastic car.

a wrecked BMW, for example, is of course not good.

and in this case, a brand new Civic is of course better, isnt it?

so what i think is: use more criteria to assess our man/woman! :)

and to my good friend that inspires this post,

wish your ncc-guitar-man has as good heart as his guitar-playing. ;)

just sharing a bit of my thought.

feel free to whack me with your comments. :)

Mighty to save, iman babibuta dan anak tukang buah...

lagu di greja hari ini si Might to save.

alkisah, dolo waktu gua baru nyampe singapur.

tiba2 gua sakit aneh, dan ga sembuh2.

si sakit bermodel demam berkala gtuh.

siang sehat malem sakit....

terus tiba lah hari minggu gua ke yrc.

terus gua lupa siapa si wl, tapi dia nyanyi lagu ini.

terus, dgn iman seadanya yg rada membabi buta,

gua nyanyi semangat 45, lagu praise lompat kyk besok uda kiamat.

alhasil, sampe lagu worship seblon firman, gua uda ngos2an.

keringet becucuran bak maen bola semalem suntuk.

dalem hati gua tau, ini pasti bkl masuk angin.

terus malem sakit makin parah.

besok balik ke neighborhood doctor.

tapi tak disangka tak dinyana,

gua sembuh.....

selaen itu,,,

hari ini gua juga tiba2 teringat si anak tukang buah.

temen gua yg pernah gua post beberapa taon silam.

dia unik abis. dan gua bingung kenapa gua bisa kenal dia..

tapi skrg gua ternyata punya kenalan2 yg rada mirip dia.

kyknya benar teori yg bilang kalo kita tu attracted to dan attracting orang2 yg spesifik.

hmmm....

jadi....

semoga si anak tukang buah baik2 aja....

dewi kwan-im!!!!

si Dewi kwan-im...

kalo kalian ga tau sapa itu si pricil.

beliau org plg kiri di foto ini! :)

seandainya sahabatku

rambut masi basah, dan gua harus bikin bahan FA.

tapi khalayak ramai uda tdur.

alhasil, gua mulae ngelamun, dan mikir2 aneh lagi...

buntut2nya gua kepikiran bagaimana gua bisa mulae cariin si putri.

semuanya mulae dari nyanyi ini di dpan pembesar musikal.

si artis, felix, andri, bombino, delly, nathan.

tentu aja di ritme yg cuman gua yg paham.

dan di pelafalan yg cuman gua yg bisa denger.

tapi mgkn ini sala satu singing session yg plg gua enjoy. :)

seandainya bisa minta videonya dari andri....

another song that colored my high school life.

tried to sing it a couple of times during karaoke session.

but of course, difficult for me! :S

sorry for the small volume. you need to increase the volume to listen it at the humane level.

anyway. enjoy! :)

i fell straight away for lily allen the first time i heard she sang this.

i remembered well, it was on the mtv. :)

#anakgaulMTV

post ga jelas part 1

akirnya hari ini gua mutusin buat nulis soal musikal.

sebetulnya, si hasrat belun datang.

kalo ditelusuri salah satu alesannya karena gua pingin nulis banyaaaaaaak,

dan gua ga suka nulis panjang.

karena gua selalu percaya kita generasi yg ga suka baca. ;p

alhasil, gua mutusin buat nulis seiprit seiprit.

tentang perjalanan pemuda lugu bermodalkan cinta selama 5 bulan terakir

setela 5 bulan berlalu,

gua makin yakin akan satu hal.

(bukan tentang perasaan ini sih) #linesatria

tentang, impresi pertama gua ttg orang, acap kali salah.

kalo di telusuri, ini ude terjadi sejak masi klas smp 2.

tmen yg paling pingin gua tonjok sejak minggu pertama sekola,

dia jadi salah satu tmen baek gua.

tmen bae di FA gue (waktu SMP),

dia jadian sama cewe yg gua perna suka. #satriaabis :((

kembali lagi, gua diingetin akan hal yg sama.

it is about giving others the second chance. be full of grace.

ada jutaan orang di luar sana yg punya hati emas,

tapi tampang minta ditonjok. :)

walao ada kebalikannya. tapi ya suda la... ;p

intinya:

gua bersyukur dapet banyak temen baru.

ada yg jadi mayan akrab.

walao gua ga tau bakal selama apa deketnya.

karena keliatannya semuanya uda mulai balik ke kesibukan masing2.

dan sperti musikal2 terdahulu, biasanya yg satu ini cukup

anget2 taik ayam. :)

tapi tak apa. gua menikmati kerja bareng kalian. :)

ya cuap2 part pertama selese disini...

btw di post ini, gua pingin mengutarakan syukur buat tmen kita si pricil itu.

yg selalu bantuin gua ganti baju, celana, kolor (loh!), dsb.

dia sih mantep abis! tampangnya tenang. bawaannya cool.

literally no sweat as well!!

ketika smua orang panas. tampang masam, dan mulut mulae ga bisa dijaga.

dia tetep santai dan memancarkan kedamaian.

uda kayak dewi kwan-im gtu. :D

literally, she was always there when i was in need.

nampaknya bung shilton beruntung! :)

langgeng terus temans! :)

terima kasih Tuhan.

beberapa hari terakir, gua jalan2 terus ama bonyok.

gua pengen banget nge-blog ttg pasca-musikal,

tapi kayaknya si hasrat belon bergelora.

tapi tidak buruk (DT: not bad*), gua dpt sedikit pencerahan hr ini.

hari ini kita bufei sushi, supper mie, dan benernya pingin makan beancurd.

tapi setela selese supper, kita kenyang banget dan memutuskan buat pulang.

dan gua sadar:

kalo waktu itu ga banyak.

mau supper aja ga cukup.

buat kerjaen hal baik aja ga cukup.

jadi kayaknya sayang kalo menit2 kita diisi dgn hal yg krg bguna.

contohnya:

nulis post ngawur gini instead of tidur awalan....