today, i had my lunch at mcdonald.
and i saw kids playing cikupa.
the game i used to play in my primary level.
i was kind of surprise to see it being played by the super-modern Singaporean kids.

few days ago, i learned a new terms called 'capability'
in business, it means the ability of the company in combining their different resources.


anyway,,,
when i had my first-ever mega-mc-spicy.
i kind of lament over my super brilliant life so to speak.

...
being born not in the super rich family is a disadvantage.
i in fact could list down a lot,
being not so handsome really is not helpful,
being not talented in many things,
being so much in love with sleeping,
having a low GPA,
having not done any internship,
and many more....

eventually, i realized though,

*being a-low-GPA student,

*somehow involved in a production,
where i need to sell tickets,
i lost 4 tix, and i believe i will be blamed for the loss.
sometimes it was my fault.
but here, i believe i play a Jesus role.
but who cares. nobody will give it a damn.
nobody will take it.
because there is an easy way out, me.
can be done while watching tv, posting a blog,
even while cleaning your ass from shit (cebok)


* asking people to come and watch.
somehow, i was wrong in their eyes.
and i became a Judas.
or even worse, pharisian probably they see me.
being hated by unreasonable reasons.


* pulling out from another production.
and causing another havoc.

oo really.
it is bloody freaking brilliant.

here, the knowledge from my IB class comes in handy.
when i combine together all things i have.
i know.
it is like a seed of corn.
it is a blessing on the way.
stuck in traffic jams perhaps.
but i know it'll come


blessing....
this is how i pronounce it:
the family i was born in,
really, i couldnt ask anything better than this.
because if i do, it would to be too much....

and one thing i learn,
any fool can criticise, condemn and complain and most fools do.
---
sometimes, i am a fool perhaps.

game over

probably you havent seen me blogging for a long time.
basically i kind have lost the appetite to write.
and i believe you lose the appetite to read my blog too...

anyway...
most of you, i believe, had played ding dong before.
yea, i know that video game arena by the name of ding dong

if you ever played those machines before, i bet you know this famous terms;
namely Game Over

lately i notice,
this game over often features in our daily lives.
sometimes, you face it in what you do.
in your job, relationship, project, school, almost everything.

and sometimes, it is just game over for you.
i am kind of person that dislike losing.
of course i dont like those two words too.
when i was a kid, whenever it appeared on my screen,
i would try best to deny that.

usually i tried to whine on my parents.
i did almost everything i could to just continue the game.

and it is exactly what happened in my life recently.
there are times, i believe, where i faced game over
and i tried many ways to just make it work.
i have done almost anything i could.
just to realise...

it is just that game over
that cannot be helped anymore,
regardless the many coins you have.

and i am left with,
if you don't like something, change it. if you can't change it, change your attitude