gossip... pssst... it kills.... heh, does it??

i am not going against anybody...
i just want to share some thought. some naughty thought i may call it.

i bet you all know what the subject means. or at least most of you.
it kills, they said. but does it really kill?
or it is kind of two edged sword. which can kill with one side,
and save others with the other side.

the case i found today really made me even more confused about this whole idea.
to make us look this problem with the same perspective, i'll tell you an example:
let say, there is one of your good friends come to you and say.

'hey dude,do you know Bob? he is taking drugs now, apparently i am the only one that knows about this.. but you know what? i cant really tell him to stop..'

and, what happens if you dont tell somebody to do something about it?
well, if you do tell others, you will committ gossipping. and it's a crime i suppose.

or even listening to your friend story actually already make you do part of gossiping
so probably you may want to do the 'psst motion' at that time.
funnily it will make things even worse. because you would never know the problem in the first place.

and it may be a bit too late, when you see this Bob making his special appearance in papers tmr morning.

now, i heard something surprising this noon.
i forgot to apply the 'psst motion' because i was too excited enjoying my chicken rice, and a bit too surprised with the news which tempted me to listen more.

after listening to it. i dont know what to do.
i cant really go there and talk to the object because i never heard from itself.
i also cant really go to someone else to share this problem.

i still wish the problem is not that serious.
and wish it could do self-recovery,
and if it couldnt, hopefully nothing bad happens until the time it is revealed.

a note. only a note.

a note in the middle of the whole craziness in my school life.
it really completes the taste i am having. =)

i think that is why meat,as the nicest creation a in burger, is put in the middle
and that is why i think burger has to be eaten as it is,
and not being ripped off like what my housemate likes to do. lol

this is only march.
only 3 months has passed....
i have been in a state of almost-swearing many many times.
want to complain, curse whatever complainable and curseable

but everytime, i feel like that...
there are things preventing me to do so.
a love and a knowledge.
love: i know that at things i want to swear at, i found love
knowledge: i know that, after the downward motion of this roller coaster,
we will go up again.

never in love with SMU in the past. and now, i am not too.
but, i know that it slowly grows.
i dont want smu ends up like smak5 which becomes sth i dont really love.
i like smpk4. but it is not the case for smak5.

i had wasted almost 2 years of my smu life without doing anything useful in smu.
but, in these three months. i found what i never imagined i would find.
things that will make me smile for a very very long time.

and i know to whom i have to be thankful.
to the one that allows me to have a bright start in this year.
world may be facing the craziness of economic downturn,
but i know, he will take care of me very very well.
and...

i wish in the remaining seconds of my life as an smu student,
i could testify about his love.

rasanya gua ga paham itu kerjanya gimana.
gua emank lon perna bisa paham.

tapi.
untunglah gua ga paham.

yang gua paham.
gua bakal inget terus rasa manisnya.
...

kisah kasih di skolah....

Kisah Kasih di Sekolah - Chrisye

erm, gua si ga perna tau kisa kasi di skola kek apa.
tapi keknya bagi yank tau,
lagu ini bakal bring back sweet memory kale ya.

gua personally suka bagian yank bunyinya:
malu aku malu pada semud meraaa. hauhauha ;p

huahua. i dun know what happen to me.
i just feel very happy,
i know the projects are waiting out there to shatter all the happiness

those projects will bring me back down to earth. ^^
but anyway. i just want to savour the sweetness as much as i can.
the actors and actress from the 'waiting room' scene have made my day.

trainings with them, honestly i hated it.
i always wanted to skip it.

but, as the GAYA days approaching, i started to enjoy practising with them
and right now, i miss it already.
tonight 'scene 1-3', we normally call it that way, was tremendous in our point of view
we never felt as ecstatic as that before.
that was the best scene 1-3 played.
we just felt very high....
it was arguably my best 3 mins in my life.
surely there will be more valuable 3 mins in my life though, such as my wedding proposal to my prospective wife.

anyway, i will never forget this sweet 3 mins.
i want to feel it again.
i thank God for Him to be there.
be the fifth person on stage and give me that peace.
and thank God
for vava, thomas, and seria.
2 christians, and 2 budhists. hopefully the latter can convert soon. ^^

and thank God,
that He allowed me to bond friendships with people i will never get to know,
if i am not involved.

and lastly.
thank God,
for every single weird feeling i have during this GAYA.
i appreciate all of that. ^^
i enjoy it.
it is simply sweet.

last but not least,
i like the time when we were about to perform.
i will call it as the last minute encouraging session.
i like it.
it is again sweet
i experienced many things which really sweet. especially encouragement from some people. =) which probably you will never know the name.
their encouragements are just simply unique and memorable.

i know that i have to move on.
back to the normal me.
the sweetness is past already
i just believe that other sweetness is waiting in the future.
and i will start to move on by stopping typing.

because believe me,
i can stay the whole nite just to type and type and type.
i simply cant contain the burst inside me. =)

and of course.
my beloved church friends.
haha. you just simply wrapped up the nite.
took photo with me just like i was a main actor. ^^
it's fun really.