dede richo..
i was questioning about something.
then suddenly while browsing thru the utube,
i found this guy.

and. He is whom the provision himself, answer himself, a healing himself.
He let me know the answer for my question.

you probably dun hav any idea what on earth i got this blind morning (pagi buta).. =p
but i have...
however, i think let it become
'bu neng shuo de mi mi'

3 o'clock in the mornin

after a short conversation with ranu, the only friend
that was still awake at such time...

i am listening to my new favorite 'white christmas'
and while listening, i am also wondering and dreaming about my future.

becoming a good adult, and then can date...
not my line, it is the line of
uu... uuu. umemura-san.....

erm..
after play the song for one last time,
i would join y'all in the theatre of dream..
no no, it is not old trafford...
dun talk bout man utd here. okay?? heuheue
*peace grady! ranu!! heuhe =D

but seriously, it is not old trafford,
it is my own bed.. my luvly theatre of dream.
where i can dream about...
just about anything...

another CT....

ya ya..
i know.. it is still like 8 months away...
but, i'm just missing the last christmas,
we spent together.
not a white cristmas,
but it in fact was a sweet one.

and now, while wondering when my white christmas comes,
i am wishing the next christmas would come quickly..

..
i love 'white christmas' song.
but,
if i were asked what is my favourite version,
i would never know the answer.....

but now, i know exactly whose version i love most...
connie talbots' for sure...

definition of 'me' for me...

sometimes i wonder..

can i go far?
i can go the distance, hercules says
and,
i know i got the strength,
i have what it takes to go far.
but...
how far is a far??

far is only a definition by a man.

by the way,
talking about definition,
people around me also define me.
they define me as a nice guy,
always on time, i wish..
lazy..
stubborn..
patient..
but,
am i??

one thing i realize recently...
the definition of me was made a long way before it.
although sometimes i make mistake,
the definition is fix, will never ever change..
i am simply a man of God..
not really after his own heart,
but somewhere around there.
somewhere running inside his vein..
and never be beyond his palm.

after all, i am just a man of God...

a meeting with the wonderboy

in another looking-for-part-time-job day...
i was inside the crowded train.

when i saw this lil boy playing rubiks.
*rubiks is the square thingie with six colours, the one will smith plays
in the 'pursuit of happynes'.

after a while, i got my seat and it was a few feet away from the boy.
then, when the train got closer to novena,
this boy's hand became quicker and quicker in fixing the puzzle.
and when that famous woman's voice said 'novena'...
he put the rubiks and took his hand off the rubiks.
which actually means i am done...

and then i checked and looked at the rubiks.
it was really done...

then when that woman said again 'doors are closing'
and the doors were closing.
the boy started to mess up the rubiks again.

i just realised that the boy were fixing the puzzle between two stations.
and the time limit is the time travel between the two stations.

the most breathtaking one is between newton and orchard.
when the 'orchard' word was cried,
he was still doing it.
he was not finish.
and then when the train stopped.
his hands became quicker and quicker.
he was breathing quickly...

then the doors were opening,
and quickly after that, he threw the rubiks into his bag.
took his hands off.
with a satisfied face, he looked at me and
stretched his lips to form a very broad smile.

was still amazed by him,
i also smiled, a big smile.

the time attack game was played by the boy for several times.
until we reached somerset,where i needed to go down.
to go to check my lovely holiday inn hotel.
where, actually he also went out from the train.

i will always love you...

paul potts got what he deserved; he won the competition..

connie talbot
a lil angel with a sweet voice
i love youuuu... huahuahua =p

5 hours to go...

Admin. L10
tempad test gua nanti...
test statistics...
yank mid term cuman daped skitar C doank.. huhu...
butuh doa kalean nich nampaknya...

yup2...
kira2 5 jem lagi ne..

waktu itu perna denger katanya,
minum susu sebelon bobo bisa bikin lelap tidurnya..
oleh karena itu gua barusan minum susu. hehe...

malemm...

as long as you stand, stand by me....

CJ 8





pumba, pumba stand by me..



i'll be alright
as long as you stand,
stand by me..

and whenever you are in trouble
stand by me
stand by me

exam day 1

pertama2...
mari kita ucapkan sampae jumpa pada Eric Case
dia itu pegawae google dan blogger bgituh...
dia sudah meninggalkan company ituh..

ermm... tao dari mana??
itu ada di bulletin blogger sbelon kalo mao add new post =D...

lalu2..
exam day 1.
kemaren sih itu.
sudahh dua yank terlewati. =D
yank pertama lumayan bisa sih..
cuman kurank waktu. :S

tapi yank kedua susah =S..
susah nya minta ampon..
trus di tengah mengerjakan..
sangking seru nya ngerjaen yak,, lalu
gua pun terbuai beberapa menit di alam mimpi.. huahua...

3 exams to go!!
God blesses Indonesian!!
Ya-Ha!!!

pre exam post 1

i always ask,
and i still remember that i asked it last week.
how can those idols who are going home can still sing a song?
their last songs in the stage.
how?

though they felt dejected, down after were kicked out from the race
they still finished their last songs.

erm, today i was allowed to be in the same situation
and i just could not finish it. lol...

and then when i write this post.
i again remember my friend, yoshua again.
in our one and only physics competition.
we reached the final 5. (not channel 5)
and we did really bad.
we were -200 from the other group.
and still we are asked for some comments about the competition held.

and when we are asked,
yoshua asked me to go and talk something.
but i said
no, i won't do it. already did that bad, just walk away and go home.
but after a while, i just decided to go up and talk some crap.

after that, came the time for anouncing the winner.
and we all the competitors are asked to go up.
again, i complained, and said that,
we are going up to be the last rite? lol

and then,
position five....
not us.
huaa...
we were so happy knowing that at least we won from somebody. lol
position four...
we thought it must be us, but never mind position 4 is okay..
but then. it is not us...
huaaa..
we were damn happy, we knew that we must be third.
and third is kind of miracle for us.
position three....

not us...

we were stunned. happy and could not say anything.
we knew we were not going to be first.
since the other group's score was so high.
but then, second was already too good.
while we were congratulating each other
our name were called for the second.

i know that the miracle probably won't work now.
but then. why don't we try again next time. lol =D...

American Idol.. Forbidden Kingdom.. Marco Polo... dan examku

kipas angin berderit2,
berputar2 di langid...

suasana di dalam rumah terank,
gua duduk di sofa bersama teman rumah laennya.
kami pun sedank menyaksikan iklan2 yank menyelip di acara amidol.
...
...

sampe lah di sebuah iklan yank sebenarnya biasa2 sajah.
iklan tentank forbidden kingdom.
namun nasib iklan ini setelah hari ini berubah.
dia akan dikenank sebagai iklan yank maha besar.

jadi begini ceritanya (phrase ini dipinjam dari acara setan di indo)
andreas: ahh.. ini forbidden kingdom ada bulenya nih, ga seru
*alesan ini selalu gua utarakan kemana pun gua brada* lol
david: tapi kayanya bagus deh ini...
andreas: tuh tuh liad2. masa jaman itu uda bisa bahasa inggris coba.
david: haha. iyah bahasa inggris ternyata ditemukan di cina.
devi: tapi kan Marco Polo pernah kesana
*diam sejenak*
david: tapi kan Marco Polo dari itali...
serumah: huahauhaua... (kami pun tertawa)
dan ada kelucuan2 laennya...
makanye kalo lagi butuh hiburan datenk kemari... =D

ermm.. peace devii!!!
inih gua critakan karena kasih sayank gua yank bgituh besar. huahua..
dan buad menunjukkan beagaimana kehangatan yank dimiliki rumah ini. haha...

dan itu smua diakhiri dengan terpakunya kita melihad idols
nyanyi shout to the Lord....


buad cuy2:
gua liad pm lo di msn adalah 'wad is life?'
erm. gua jadi inged sama temen gua
dolo temen gua juga ada yank nanya.
dan temen gua yank laen ada yank jawab.
jadi kalimad di bawah ini diambil dari yoshua (sodaranya louisa) lol
benernya si yoshua ini ditanya soal tujuan idupnya sih,
tapi rada meped2 deh ama soal nya elo. heuheu...

"hidup itu bagaikan titik di garis nga berhingga,
hidup kita yang singkat dan tidak abadi ini untuk menentukan apa yang akan terjadi di saat tidak berhingga nanti.."

ermphh.. kembali ke examm gua lagii..
selamad malem...
waktu skarank menunjukkan 3:33 am

Bai Su Zhen, o Bai Su Zhen....

siank ini gua mendekam di ruma.
blajar. ketiduran. blajar lagi.
alhasil baru mandi jem 6 sore abis bercengrkrama dengan
ci anita dan nyokapnya beserta another david.

sebelun mereka datenk.
rasanya bosan juga blajar di ruma. cape.
lalu ditenga2 kesibukan belajar,
gua mulai berandai2.

gua udah kayak scholar jaman dolo yank belajar,
buad ujian ke kota.
terus di tengah jam belajar yank suntuk..

biasa ni kalo di pilem silad.
ada yank ketok pintu.. *tok2*
lalu ketika dibuka, ada wanita cantik bawa kendi isi sup.
lalu bilank ayo dimakan dolo sup ginsengnya.
biar segar dan bisa lanjutin belajar.


kaya si Bai Su Zhen yank bawain buad Xu Xian
huehuee...
tapi tak hanya bus skola yank tak datank
siluman ular putih yank ditunggu2 pun tak kunjunk datank...

haruskah ku mati karena mu cinta??

Bagaimana mestinya
Membuatmu jatuh hati kepadaku
Tlah kutuliskan sejuta puisi
Meyakinkanmu
Membalas cintaku

Haruskah ku mati karenamu
Terkubur dalam kesedihan...sepanjang waktuku
Haruskah kurelakan hidupku
Hanya demi cinta yang mungkin bisa membunuhku
Hentikan denyut nadi jantungku
Tanpa kau tahu betapa suci hatiku
Untuk...memilikimu

Adakah keikhlasan
dalam palung jiwamu...mengetukmu
Ajarkanmu bahasa perasaan
Hingga hatimu tak lagi membeku

Tiadakah ruang di hatimu untukku
Yang mungkin bisa tuk kusinggahi
Hanya sekedar penyejuk
Di saat ku layu
Kusetia menantimu hingga akhir masa


erm, itu seh lirik lagunya si ada band se..
kemaren2 ini gua cuman lagi mikir2 isenk..
benernya ini kaya Tuhan lage ngomonk ye.. lol

Bagaimana mestinya
Membuatmu jatuh hati kepadaku
Tlah kutuliskan sejuta puisi
Meyakinkanmu
Membalas cintaku

-->menurud gua firmannya Tuhan uda mirip puisi de.. bagus2 ^^


Adakah keikhlasan
dalam palung jiwamu...mengetukmu
Ajarkanmu bahasa perasaan
Hingga hatimu tak lagi membeku--> melembudkan hati yank keras gtuhh.. ;p


Tiadakah ruang di hatimu untukku --> erm kaya lagu Franky Sihombink nehh..
Yang mungkin bisa tuk kusinggahi --> yahh ini mah mirip line diatas cuma direphrase
Hanya sekedar penyejuk
Di saat ku layu --> yah, mati 2 harian itu termasuk layu ga ya??
Kusetia menantimu hingga akhir masa --> ermm, bener banged nii =D


Haruskah ku mati karenamu--> yah sedihnya Tuhan Yesus emank mesti mati yah...
Terkubur dalam kesedihan...sepanjang waktuku --> yah yank ini seh emank ga nyambunk
Hanya demi cinta yang mungkin bisa membunuhku --> emank bisa Tuhan...
Hentikan denyut nadi jantungku --> yah sementara seh 2 harian kali...
Tanpa kau tahu betapa suci hatiku --> skarank sudah tahu Tuhan =D
Untuk...memilikimu --> silahkan Tuhan =D

huhaua... yahh segitu dolo de..
lo orank tau ga jem brapa skrg? jem limaa pagi..
mesti bobo, bsok blajar. study week niii ;p
tiduuurrrrr!!!

a wondering mind.. is it a healthy mind?

i haven't heard and read
those 4 irritating magical words for a while now.
for me it is irritating, but not for most people.
and some people, i know that they know those 4 words. lol =D

in the same silence last night,
ci feni was awake for the whole nite.
and
today i am wondering where is my old habit.
my old habit of thinking of myself becoming excel in this and that.
my old me, where are you?

i want to restore that kind of myself
but now not only thinking.
but also realising the thought.

and sir. to impress you is one of things i desire.
to make you proud of me.
and to make you always are thinking of me.
just like the great shepherd does...

tomorrow, i'll go for the last sow.
will be on time i think. gut nite

i love you whom i am running with

while waiting my hair to be dry.
i am now wondering.

with whom i was running?
alone?
nope.

The Lord has provided me with a bunch of people.
to keep me happy
shining (may be)
smiling all the time.

always?
nope.
sometime i found myself alone.
the time when.
i realise how much i need to lean on him.

....
....

lately

lately, i think things just went to the wrong direction.
it was just so wrong.

but then who am i?
i am only a lil boy to whom people won't give their ears
nor their eyes.

i can do nothing but pray.
include it to my short tiny pray list so that
my pray list can be a bit longer.

hahhh...
so i now ask y'all a favour to lend me your eyes
to read this post. =D

just want to remind y'all with some lil notes
from biblecamp two last year.






Kalo Hayam Wuruk punya Gajah Mada, Hitler punya Philipp Lenard, dan Daud punya 30 pahlawannya,,, Gua juga punya segelintir orank orank luar biasa yang memungkinkan Bible Camp ini bisa terlaksana. Dan gua saat ini ingin memberikan apresiasi setinggi tingginya buad mereka… hehe ^^

Louisa, ibu sekretaris kita, thank you buat minutesnya, kalo lage rapad ye, die tuh orank yank palink sibuk dah… and juga design badgenya , keren boo!!!...
Kemudian, Ibu Melissa a.k.a bombie, treasurer, orang penting yg megang duit and dana buat biblecamp,, hahaha…
Gue juga punya si nona double portion, Elisa,: designer flyer + gamersz kita..thank you dah sabar banget and rela buat ganti2 designnya.
Berikudnya Mas Felix buat ide2 games yg ngga pernah abis, ampe heran kadang2 kok ada orang kreatif bener hehe. Para gamers (hamper semua panitia sih, ada Gheko, alberto, Hendy yg udah berela ria buat try out and ngumpulin barang2 games. Thanks for all the fun.
Dan tentunya kehadiran Registration crews yang begitu krusial… San2, Rancu, all kelompok FA, Hendro dengan ide demo ala Indonya, you guys done a great job!!
Nah ini ne,, yank mesti kalian sayangi dengan sangad… Kenny and Lydia yg make sure kalo kita ngga kelaparan. Soalnye taanpa sie konsumsi, sulit juga neh, ngga ada tenaga buat loncat2.
Mas Wira and team yg bakal jepret2 pas kita in action...nah kalo dah liat ada yg tenteng2 kamera..cepetan bergaya,, jadi buad elo elo orank yank narsis, mending ceped dekati mereka dah... =P
Tirza and team multimedia...makasiiiiiii..... bagi yank belon apal lagu, mesti berterima kasi neh sama mereka.....
Dan tentu sajah gua sungguh bersyukur dengan ada nya Samson Samson TLG,, Orang2 kuat and macho dari team logistic, Michael, Anthony and temen2…..
Juga terima kasih kepada CK yg udah ngaturin jadwal PW yank asikkk dan tentunya menyenangkan hati Babeh di Sorga...….
Nah buad yank naek bus kemari, jangan lupa bilang terima kasih Steven…ini dia yg udah nyari2 and bookingin bus kita…
Dan tentu sajah gua tidak lupa kepada sodari kita Becky yg udah bantuin nawar harga T-shirt haha…lain kali harus ngajak kamu ke Mangga dua neh…(elo orank kalo mao minta bantuannya, gua rasa die juga bersedia kok)… =P
Nah kalo loe berasa booklet ini keren banget ( yank mana sebenernya uda pasti elo berasa begetoh) =P , ini berkat David C and team yg udah design and bikinin booklet.
Buat temen2 yg udah bantu in one way and another and juga buat doa2nya. I may not able to mention all of names…thank you semua!
Dan tentunya berterima kasih banyak buat pahlawan kita yang mantaph, Yesus…
Last but not least, thank you for all of YOU yang dah ikutan biblecamp.. Let’s grab this opportunity to make the best out of this camp. Let’s be BOLD and Unashamed, yeah!!!


Panitia Bible Camp…
Widiya
(Widiya Gani)


haha.
let's have a few sweet nostalgic minutes
of what happened in the camp, before, after
and just whatever related to the camp....

take a deep breath...
and i believe we are ready to contiinue this day.